Well, I think it's possible most Loungers were right. My - date - last night

[crim son]

was not what I'd hoped. I don't know whether to attribute it to political differences or not. We did start arguing over politics but it evolved into a discussion of my grotesque personal flaws and HE MADE ME CRY at a fucking restaurant. I don't do crying in public very often although admittedly it's happened in the past months more than once. We left immediately and then talked it through. He kept saying "I don't want to work that hard." What makes me sick at heart is that I really don't blame him. Obviously my life is a mess but he was right about what he said were my issues.

Ah, whatever. I'm waiting on the email that tells me that he's decided it's too much work. I'm stupidly disappointed and I sincerely hope you guys can be easy on the "I told you so"s. I think this might be more of a personality conflict. Boo. Hoo. -L

edited for writing like a moron

I'm going to go think about things for a while. Thank you so much for letting me spill my guts but let's be honest here - do you think you can stop me? :grouphug: :P