Reply #123: serious prosperity and futility issues

[FirstLight]

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=389x9218548

i posted in gd because it's relevant to everyone who is still trying to make it work in this broken system.

I don't know what to do with myself, it always comes to this.
I want to do so much goodness with my life, i have so much to share and give...but i have to feed my family and there is nowhere to turn. the panic of poverty sets in and i start looking at something, anything to get us by, even if it kills my soul. but the thing is, the universe has been blocking that option too...because nothing is happening. all those resumes, no bites.

am i really supposed to just create my own thing and make it work after all?

who knows...i just don't want to be 'controlled' by the state anymore...i feel so useless and trapped :cry: