Reply #5: I'm so sorry that this is happening to you, woodsprite.

[I Have A Dream]

I ask that the Universe and those beings that work with you for your highest good envelope you in a blanket of peace and comfort so that the fear can leave you. I ask that you feel the love of the Universe, and I ask that you are guided to those things that will allow you to take action to heal your body and the associated damage done to your psyche caused by fear. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

You mention that you've been following the manifestation thread. In addition to taking all possible medical action, maybe you could try to manifest a complete & total recovery. It will give you something into which you can put your energies rather than allowing them to futher fuel your fear. One of the steps could be visualizing yourself as being well in the future.

I will keep you in my thoughts and will continue to send you love and light. :hug::hug: