Reply #65: Rick, can you tell me what it might mean for me?

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Lately, I have been taking care of things that have fallen through the cracks or ignored for far too long. It feels like a NEED or I am driven to do these things. It feels great to see what I have accomplished....and my yard looks beautiful.

I am at the lowest weight I have been in 13 years and now am checking out the fellas. ;)
This came from out of nowhere and I am surprised at myself and somewhat embarrassed to admit it.

It almost feels like I am working on the outside "stuff" so I can get to the inside.

Unfortunately, I still have moments when I feel terrified of the future and worry about finding a job.
I am still back at school for now, but wish I had some stability. The panic attacks are probably a result of the instability I feel.

I dunno Rick, how might it affect me if you don't mind my asking. Are the things I am experiencing part of this?