Oh God What Am I Going To Do. I Love Her So Much.

[OPERATIONMINDCRIME]

Hey friends. I'm crying my eyes out right now and I'm so scared. Her blood counts aren't going up and her blood pressure dropped. They think she might be septic.

What the fuck am I going to do. I love her so much. I want her to fight this so bad. Why the fuck isn't her marrow producing the white blood cells yet? I don't want to lose her. I know I have to hope with all my heart, and I am. But every day there's no good news. It keeps getting worse. She has a few days at most and her marrow ain't cooperating. She doesn't have much time for it to start, and if it does it might be too late.

oh my god I might be losing my wife. Out of the blue, when she was doing so well, so strong, so happy, I might lose my wife. She didn't even know it. She had no idea. For a short point yesterday she cried out in tears "oh my god I'm never going to see my kids again" but we said "it's ok honey, you'll see them soon". But I don't know anymore. Things ain't looking so good.

What the fuck am I going to do? How am I going to raise these 2 kids on my own? How am I going to figure out the bills? How am I going to afford them? I'll have to sell the house, I'll have to do so many things.

I want her home. I want her to get better. Why did this have to happen? I just don't believe this. She loved her kids too much. She couldn't stay away from them when they were sick. I tried to keep her away but she wouldn't listen. Her love for our kids may have killed her. I don't want to lose her and I'm crying so hard right now. I'm so scared. I don't even know what I'm typing.

All I know is that she may be septic and might only have a few days left. I know I'm going there as soon as my sister comes here to watch my kids. I don't want to see her like this. I don't want to watch her dying right in front of me. But I have to be there for her. I love her so much. God DU, I don't know what to say or do. I'm holding onto hope but I also am a realist and know right now exactly where this is heading and it hurts so bad.

Do you know just a few days before she got sick her hair started falling out? She was so strong about it. We sat down at midnight that night at the kitchen table and I shaved her head. She had me put on Patti Labelles "New Attitude" and we were blasting it the whole time. While I'm cuttin it she's sittin there bopping her head from side to side singing, with such a positive smile on her face. She had me videotape the whole thing. She looked so strong, so happy. What the fuck went wrong just a few days later? How now a little over a week later am I facing the reality of losing her, out of nowhere?

I love her so much. She has no idea what's happening to her right now. She had no idea when she said goodnight to our kids that night we drove her to the emergency room that she may never see them again.

She's so special. So sweet. How the fuck is she dying right now? It's so not right. I want my wife back!

I'm so sorry for babbling. I'm so scared. Crying so hard. I don't know what to do. I don't know if she's going to make it guys, and that KILLS me to say right now.

But I'm hoping. I have to have hope. But I can't help from facing the brutal reality of what this all means.

PLEASE OH GOD CAN HER COUNTS START COMING BACK. She doesn't have much time. Please God help us. There's nothing anybody else can do. There's no other options. It's just a dangerous waiting game right now. Please let there be a miracle. Please can she somehow turn around course in the next 24-48 hours, before it's too late.

Oh god I don't even know what I'm typing. I just don't know what else to do but put my fears in type right now while the tears run down my face and I wait for my sister. I just don't believe this is real.

[bicentennial_baby]

1. ....

:cry:

:hug:

Sending you everything we have OMC....Sniffa and I both. Stay strong :hug:

[BarenakedLady]

2. I have no words.

:hug:

[Ptah]

3. .

[Starbucks Anarchist]

4. ...

:hug: :hug:

[WritingIsMyReligion]

5. Oh dear.

OMC, that is truly, truly terrible. As I said before, I almost never agree with you, but to see you in such agony is too much for anyone, and your love for your wife and your family is clearly profound.

Go and be with her, if that is what you need, or go and be with your kids. We'll still be here when you need us.

:hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

6. How horrifying for you and your boys...

Talk to her, let her hear you...

Because she will hear what you say to her...

She will carry your love with her in her soul forever, beyond death...

Just as you will carry her love inside you...

:hug:

[TZ]

7. I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say.

I think everyone will have you and your family in our thoughts and prayers and hope for the best....:hug: :hug: :hug:

[MadHound]

8. Oh, geez man, all my thoughts and prayers are with you

There's nothing that I can say that will make it all right, but I will keep your wife in my thoughts and prayers and give you a hug:hug::hug::hug::hug: 'cause you need one.

[SPKrazy]

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

embrace the time you have and have had

pray

stay with her

embrace your kids

love her

she's not gone

sorry man...sucks

talk talk talk

[devilgrrl]

9. I'm so sorry.

I'll keep hoping for the best.

:hug:

[skygazer]

10. I'm so very sorry

I will continue to hope for the best. As for what you will do if that doesn't come to pass, you will continue to put one foot in front of another - painfully - and do the best you can for your - for her - children. And we will be here for you.

:hug:

[Jackpine Radical]

227. We're all here for both of you.

If our deepest and most heartfelt wishes can make her better, it will be so.

[lizziegrace]

11. ...

I'm praying you get your miracle. :hug:

[Midlodemocrat]

12. Everyone should feel such love, OMC.

And right now, Stacey knows how desperately she is loved by you. Our family said the rosary for yours last night. Prayers and good thoughts to all of you.

Fight this, Stacey, fight it. :cry: :hug:

[NMDemDist2]

13. .....

I'm crying too OMC

and praying for that miracle

:cry:

[Midlodemocrat]

14. Glad I'm not the only one.

:cry:

Praying through the tears.

[nadine_mn]

15. ...

I am so sorry :hug:

[warrior1]

16. You don't know me

But, I'm giving you a hug and holding you tight.

Mary

[cobalt1999]

17. Hang in there buddy.

Don't underestimate yourself, you are going to make it through this.

[supernova]

18. Oh lord.

I hear your anguish, OMC. And it's perfectly justifiable to talk about it.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :cry: :hug:

You're a good man for loving your wife so, and I have every confidence you'll figure out the best thing to do.

[Pithlet]

19. I'm so sorry, OMC.

You and your family are in my thoughts. I read your post last night and thought about you and your wife all night. I hope your wife pulls through this. :hug:

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

20. ...

:hug:

[LaraMN]

21. Every vibe I've got is sent your way.

Every single one.
Fingers crossed, holding my breath that things turn around.

:cry:

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[lost-in-nj]

22. I have no words..

I can feel your pain and love in your posts.......

:hug: :hug:

lost

[Cass]

23. OMC, you and your wife are in my prayers.

[sufrommich]

24. Praying for your miracle,OMC.

[MrCoffee]

25. my prayers are with you and yours, OMC

if there was anything else i could offer, you'd have that too.

[I Have A Dream]

26. OMC, my heart hurts so much for you. I wish that I could just make it all...

better. I feel as though I know her since I watched your wedding video, so it feels very real to me. I wish that I could take on some of your pain just to give you a break. :(

I'm also asking for a miracle for her. :cry:

:hug:

[huskerlaw]

27. Oh OMC,

I am so sorry this is happening to you.

Tell your wife how much you love her and how badly you want her to fight. She will hear you.

My vibes, thoughts, prayers, etc. are all with you and your family today, OMC.

:hug:

[La Lioness Priyanka]

28. sorry.

:cry:

[txwhitedove]

29. Life sometimes just sucks! But you are not alone, OMC…

Your children need you more than ever, and they can be a comfort.
All of DU cares We’re here for you to talk to and, I’m sure, lend a helping hand.

[leftofthedial]

30. I'm so sorry.

I wish I could ease your pain and hers.

[hedgehog]

31. My prayers are with you.

[mitchum]

32. I am so sorry, but you are not alone, my brother

[graywarrior]

33. I wish more than anything I could help

:hug:

[Beausoir]

34. Fight, Mrs. OMC. Keep fighting.

[crispini]

35. Love and light to you.

Love and light comes to you and her from all of us.

[MissHoneychurch]

36. Positive vibes on the way

I really really hope your wife is pulling through this. Please stay positive. She is noticing your love all the time.

:hug: for you, her and your family.

[Haole Girl]

37. Just saw this thread...

I will pray and hope for a miracle, too. Miracles do happen. I truly believe that. :hug:

[Bennyboy]

38. (((((((GOOD VIBES)))))))))))

I am so sorry. I am so glad that you have this outlet available to you to express the words that you might not be able to say to your wife or others too. You will be in my thoughts and prayers...

[GardeningGal]

39. First of all OMC, please do NOT give in to the fear.

I know that's way easier said than done but I believe it's important. The next thing is to be with your wife, hold her hand and tell her that she can pull out of it, she's strong and that you know she can do it. Play her "New Attitude" in her room and remind her of her strength.

I will be thinking of you both this weekend and sending healing light and love.

[rubberducky]

40. My prayers are with you and your sweet lady.

Peace and strength to both of you.

[brentspeak]

41. Prayers for you and your wife

[rockymountaindem]

42. God be with all of you

and send speedy healing.

[Dervill Crow]

43. OMC, My heart goes out to you.

:hug: I'm crying with you and for you and your family. Sending you all the love and light and healing in the universe. :hug:

[JitterbugPerfume]

44. all I can do is

to shed a tear for your pain

[Writer]

45. Just stay right at your keyboard and keep writing.

As best as you can, don't stop writing. We'll keep responding. I am praying for you!

~Writer the Drifter~

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

46. Stay with her.

We're all thinking of you, and her, but spend all your time with her now. :hug: We'll still be here when you want to write again.

[TheProphetess]

47. Our thoughts and prayers are with you

From Estimated Prophet and from me. :hug:

[Lydia Leftcoast]

48. Go be with her, OMC

That's where you want to be.

:hug:

[1gobluedem]

49. Praying, praying...

It's all I can do. For your wife, for you, and for your boys. With everything I have.

[SeattleGirl]

50. ........

:grouphug:

[auntAgonist]

51. Keeping you and your dear wife and family in my thoughts.

[robinlynne]

52. We love you. and her. We will hope and pray.

[Maestro]

53. Keeping your wife in my thoughts.

Keep us informed if you are able. You are in our thoughts OMC!

[Left Is Write]

54. OMC...

I have just finished reading your other thread and now this one.

There are no words, other than that I am so sorry for what your family is going through. You and Mrs. OMC have my prayers.

[LynzM]

55. Love and good thoughts to you both...

I don't know what to say... I wish I could heal her and take away your pain. I will hope against hope with you for the miracle you are praying for. :hug:

[SarahB]

56. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm a nurse and part of my patient population includes oncology patients, so I'm all too familiar with this from a clinical standpoint. I'm also a mom near your wife's age and from a personal standpoint, it breaks my heart. It just isn't fair that this stuff happens. Your boys need you though. Keep going for them if if you just feel like you're going through the motions right now. Sometimes as parents and life is crumbling around us, it's all we can do. :(

[philosophie_en_rose]

57. I'm so sorry, OMC.

Please take care. I can't write anything to make this okay, but I want you to know that so many people are thinking of you. Don't apologize for 'babbling.'

[Mz Pip]

58. I am hoping and praying

that your next post will bring good news. Miracles do happen. Now would be a good time for one. :hug:

Mz Pip
:dem:

[fizzgig]

59. omc...

i have no words. your wife, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers

:hug:

[Critters2]

60. OMC, I' ve been praynig for you family,

and will keep doing so. I'm so sorry this is happening.

As to bills, the house, etc....you'll deal with those things when the time comes. For now, just be wtih your wife and your kids.

And know there are many here who are pulling for her!

:hug:

[Kajsa]

61. OMC, I'm sending out everything I have,

to you, your wife and kids.

I hope this turns, quick!

I'm so,so sorry. :cry:

:hug:

[Mutley]

62. I'm so sorry.

You, your wife and your kids are in my thoughts. :hug:

[jgraz]

63. We're all with you here

[BlueIris]

64. No words. But you can still PM me anytime.

[Evergreen Emerald]

65. I am so sorry.

What can I do?

[griffi94]

66. you don't know me

sending whatever wishes i have your way....hang in...do your best.

[Bluebear]

67. Think of Stacey, think for the moment, not about the house, not about the future.

The future will take care of itself one way or the other, just be there and envision those counts coming back. Don't torture yourself beyond that....I'm sorry for the hell you are going through.

[shadowknows69]

68. You have my prayers and positive thoughts OMC

All things will resolve as they will. Be strong. We'll be here for you.

[alfredo]

69. Stay strong.

[proud patriot]

70. Sending all the strength I can

:hug:

[cali]

71. OMC, I am so heartbroken for you

and so frustrated that I can't do anything to help you and your so beloved wife. What can I say, but that I'm here in the ether for you. I'm not much of one for praying, but I pray your wife will get through this, and that you'll get through it, and your kids as well.

Hang in there old friend. Hang in there.

Love from,

cali

[HamdenRice]

72. Take it one step at a time

Give her positive vibes that she is going to live. Don't even think about the alternative right now. Don't get ahead of yourself. Just be there for what you know right now is going to be her recovery.

When I was younger, my then wife was given the prognosis that she was going to die within hours. She didn't. Don't even think about the alternative now. If it happens, you'll deal with that later. Compartmentalize time. That will make it easier.

Right now, think about it as a grave situation that WILL work out.

[zippy890]

73. we love you

and her and your family

:grouphug:

[midnight]

74. Praying for you and your wife that she turn this around.

[Warpy]

75. Miracles can still happen

I've seen them once in a while in my nursing career.

Please take the kids in to see her. It won't be real for them until you do.

[Ms. Toad]

282. Yes, take the children to see her

It will be hard, but it will be one of the most precious gifts you can give both your children and your wife.

I don't know how old your children are, but for children old enough to have long term memories of their mother knowing is far better than not knowing. Sometimes a child's imagination is not a blessing, particularly when it fills gaps with all sorts of things that are worse than reality. My daughter's long term memory started after her grandfather died shortly before her 3rd birthday and when her grandmother died shortly after her 3rd birthday, as a reference. The hospital should be able to hook you up with someone who can be there with you and your children and help make it less scary.

You might also see if you can hook up with a local hospice group. They are not necessarily just for the immediately terminal and can help make the process of exploring dying a lot less scary.

Holding you and your family in the Light.

[eleny]

76. I'm so sorry this is happening

And am keeping you all close in my thoughts.

[mcscajun]

77. Ohmigod, I am so very sorry.

:( It's just heartbreaking. :(

All good thoughts going your way. I hope those counts come back fast. :hug:

[Whoa_Nelly]

78. Pushing for her miracle

Holding hope for your strength :hug:

[bunkerbuster1]

79. {{{{{{{{OMC}}}}}}}}}}}}

If I could hug you I would. All I can say from out here is, hang in there and be strong, bro.

[midlife_mo_Jo]

80. I'm new here,

so I'm really unfamiliar with "you," but I did want to say how I am praying for your wife.

I can feel the pain and fear of your losing her in every word you wrote. She has to know how much you love her. Some people live a very long life without ever experiencing that kind of love.

I am praying that her counts start coming up and that she will be with you for a long time.

[SammyWinstonJack]

81. ...

:hug:

[asthmaticeog]

82. I'm sorry.

[rateyes]

83. Listen. I have been visiting a woman who was septic

for 6 months with MRSA...She had all kinds of hardware in her body on which the staph infection could have collected. They finally removed a pacemaker lead and found the source. She's getting better.

This is, I know, a very difficult time, and there is no way that any of us can offer you anything but hope. But, there is still hope. If they can find an antibiotic that will attack whatever is causing the pneumonia, things can still change for the better. Vancomyocin, for example.

I wish that I could snap my fingers and make it better. I wish I could promise you it will get better. But, regardless of what happens...and, we're all still holding out hope for the best...you can get through this for yourself and your kids. And, you have a whole community of people who are willing to help do whatever they can.

Hang on to the hope.

We're all sending positive thoughts your way.

[nam78_two]

84. ...

:hug:

[ElizabethDC]

85. OMC, I'm praying like crazy for you and your family

:hug:

[BlooInBloo]

86. :( I'm sorry. Hoping for you, though.

[tammywammy]

87. Oh god, OMC

I'm praying for you and your family and Stacy.

:hug:

[OzarkDem]

88. Praying hard for you both

Those damn counts have to come back up, they just have to.

She also needs you with her no matter how hard it is for you. She will know when you're there and the worst part of this journey is fear of being alone.

Mr. Ozark Dem and I are praying for you both.

[ClayZ]

89. Blessings to all who touch her!

May the hands of every doctor and nurse bring healing to her!

[williesgirl]

90. My heart is breaking for you and your family. Please feel the love from your friends here at DU,

although I'm sure it's not comforting at a time like this. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us updated as we all await the miracle you need. rec'd

[Totally Committed]

91. I'm pulling for both of you, and your family.

I will keep you in all my best thoughts, close to my heart.

You are not alone.

TC

[tom_paine]

92. Praying for you and your family, OMC.

This is beyond petty bickering, beyond the concerns of the day or the decade.

I don't know what else to say, guy, except I am praying and pulling for her and you.

:hug:

[NanceGreggs]

93. No matter what you must go through ...

... you won't go through it alone. We are all here for you.

:hug:

[JeffR]

94. Hoping fiercely here, OMC

All good thoughts to her and to you and to your family.

[NewJeffCT]

95. We're all pulling for your wife

and you and your family. Best wishes and good luck.

[Vinca]

96. I'm so sorry - don't give up hope. nt

[uppityperson]

97. OMC, I have little to say but I hope things turn around and peace for you all.

hang in there, it is hard, it is scary, there may be nothing you can do and losing someone you love so much is very very hard. Hugs and tears to you.

[laylah]

98. No words for you OM;

but lots of love and prayers for you and your love. May you both find peace in whatever happens. I am so very sorry :hug:

[Greybnk48]

99. ...

:grouphug: Love to you and your family. Please keep us posted here OMC.

[Raven]

100. OMC, listen! You will get through this!

First, you will get through this for her. Then, for your kids. Then, for you.

She needs you to be strong and so do your children.

I have a friend who went through almost the same thing. She was critical for a time and then beat it back. She is alive, well and playing golf these days. We didn't think she would survive but she did. She has a fabulous husband and wonderful kids.

Keep doing what you're doing. Cry when you can and be strong when you must. Take one step at a time...one step.

You need your strength and you have the good thoughts and prayers of everyone here.

[bbgrunt]

101. may peace, love and grace be with you and your family.

[Downtown Hound]

102. I'm terribly sorry

I wish I had better words, but all I can do is send some positive vibes your way. Take care, may you find the light some way.

[peacetheonlyway]

103. REIKI practictioner Advice, healing words

stop saying "she's dying right now" and show her and show yourself pictures of her walking out of the hospital.

right now tell her and yourself, that your wife will be walking with complete health out of the hospital.

the mind can do powerful things to the body. stop playing into the negativity that DOCTORS inspire with their crude instruments and very sad lack of analysis and reasoning.

i have personally met several personal friends who staved off the death the doctors said was imminent.

RIGHT NOW STOP THE NEGATIVITY.

go to her bedside and talk incessantly about the vacation next week you and your kids will take with your wife.

show her images , pictures of herself in the future doing these things.

I'm sorry you are so stressed.

ask everyone on this thread to please VISUALIZE your wife getting white blood cells back.

you would be surprised the global energy you can summon for your wife right now.

please please ask us to see her healthy now!

[SHRED]

108. beautiful advice

This must be so difficult.
I can't imagine.

We all should visualize his wife well again.

---

[wovenpaint]

133. Yes to this!

I'm another one sending Reiki energy - and visualizing healing and health.
Stay strong...

[alphafemale]

164. Yes. Find the most positive people you know. Also get friends & family to help with daily chores.

Shopping. Cooking. That sort of thing.

[nofurylike]

244. yes yes yes those very words, yes! we all got to together see

this that peacetheonlyway has sent us.

see it, feel it

feel it!


please

thank you for putting in words, peacetheonlyway....


together!

[LeahD]

253. Absolutely seeing you both walk out of that hospital soon. n/t

[Liberal Veteran]

104. My thoughts are with you and her...I'm so very sorry

I wish you both all the strength you need to get through this.

[libnnc]

105. I have no words

Just tears and a cyber hug

Hang on, OMC. Just hang on.
:cry: :cry: :hug: :hug: :cry: :cry: :hug: :hug:

[blogslut]

106. I will pray for her and for you

Hang on. Just hang on.

[SKKY]

107. Every good vibe I have is yours. And for her marrow...

...WAKE THE FUCK UP! DO YOUR JOB!!!!

[Triana]

109. I'm not a religious person but - GOD HELP your wife...

..NOW. Sending the good vibes and prayers to - who/whatever.

[Lone_Star_Dem]

110. (((((HUGS)))))

May healing energy surround Mrs.OMC and see her well.

Stay strong, OMC. The kids need you right now. :grouphug:

[NewWaveChick1981]

111. All my best vibes for your wife, OMC...

:hug: You and your wife and your kids are in my thoughts. :pals:

[Buns_of_Fire]

112. Whatever prayers I've got that are still listened to, they're yours.

Be with her. Fight alongside her. We'll be here when you get back.

[radiclib]

113. Be strong, my friend

We've all got your back. :hug:

[mmonk]

114. I'm so sorry to hear this.

I'll pray for her, you, and your family.

[krispos42]

115. Love and hugs n/t

[ancient_nomad]

116. I'm so sorry.....

All my thoughts and prayers for a miracle for your wife, you and your children.

Hang in there, take it moment by moment, and talk to her....she hears you!


:hug: :cry:

[Subdivisions]

117. Now I'm crying with you. God bless you both OMC and I will

be praying hard for your wife to get better. Hang in there friend.

[BattyDem]

118. I'm so very sorry.

I'm sending out every bit of positive energy I have to your wife. I hope things turn around soon. I don't know what else to say. I'm crying. :cry:

We're all here for you. :hug:

[Withywindle]

119. All my best vibes for you and her right now.

All I've got. Hold on. We're with you.

:hug:

[HughMoran]

120. I'll do my best to send out the healing energy

.

[MuseRider]

121. OMC

I don't know what to say but I will say that you do have us to lean on when you need it. I don't think there is a single DUer who is not sending prayers, thoughts, good vibes to your family. Do what you have to do, lean on us when you need to and take care of yourself as best as you can when you can. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

I am sending little angel thoughts to your children. I don't know any angels but if there are any I know they will be there.

[Bluerthanblue]

122. live every single second

to its fullest OMC- every one.
we miss so much....

oh....god....

..my heart aches for you and your beloved family.

...just be-... there is no 'right' way to cope with this.

Sending you, your wife, and your precious children love, comfort and wishes of goodness.

peace .my friend.
:hug:
blu

[Le Taz Hot]

123. I am so so sorry for you and your family.

We'll all keep positive thoughts for you and your wife. Try not to think about the house, bills, etc. It's too much. Friends and relatives should be able to help you with all that if it becomes necessary. Right now the priority is your family. Please keep us informed when you can. We all care.

[MANative]

124. Sending love and healing thoughts to your wife, and

strength and hope to you and your children.

:hug:

[Annces]

125. I will send a prayer up for you

[lligrd]

126. Adding My Prayers

for both of you.

[Mnemosyne]

127. I am so sorry, OMC.

These are the times when we truly learn what it means to treasure every moment. She is still here, so there is still hope. And you have children so the hope continues on, always.

I do not know what else to say except use the strength of your love and your friends to survive. I am so sorry for what you are going through.

It is good for you to reach out like this and share your sorrow, it will make it easier to bear what ever will come when shared.

:hug:

[sarge43]

128. Oh God, OMC. Again I wish I had more than words. n/t

[Guaranteed]

129. We're praying for her, and for you.

She'll pull through, my friend.

[TwilightGardener]

130. Prayers for your wife and for you--I hope her condition improves. God bless.

[Crunchy Frog]

131. Hoping desperately that things will somehow turn around for her.

Just be with her all you can now. :cry:

[Debi]

132. ...

:hug: I don't know what else to say

[MrsMatt]

134. If prayers comfort you - I'll be praying for you, your wife, & children

If good thoughts comfort you - I'll be sending good thoughts to you and yours.

[MrScorpio]

135. No words I can say can compensate

All I can do is give you a hug

:hug:

[EFerrari]

136. Love and light to you.

:hug:

[The Straight Story]

137. Kicking with a prayer my friend

I hope and pray it gets better.

[MasonJar]

138. I am praying for you and your wife and your boys. Just to give a little hope

a counselor at a school where I teach (in her 30s with two small boys) was told early this past summer that she would not live. She said no, I will. I have to raise my boys. She was back at school the first day this year. Hang in there; it may turn around.

[Mythsaje]

139. Man, this totally sucks...

I wish there were words, but there aren't. There are few things more terrifying that what you're going through here. You can add all our hopes to yours that it'll come out all right, but all that hope adds up to little more than a handful of dust.

Right now all any of us can do is be here for you and let you know that you have our best wishes and our support...for what it's worth.

And "babble" away. If anyone's entitled, it's you.

[OmmmSweetOmmm]

140. I'm sending love and light and healing thoughts for (((((((your wife, you and your

children)))))))

[salin]

141. Prayers sent OMC

I wish there were words that could say or do something to help the situation. May some of your strength seep through to her and help create the energy for the needed turn around. :hug:

[Arugula Latte]

142. My thoughts and hopes are with you both.

:hug:

[smoogatz]

143. Good vibes to her and you.

Courage, friend.

[applegrove]

144. Sending her vibes. I'm so sorry for you all.

[regnaD kciN]

145. Prayers continuing...

:hug:

[knitter4democracy]

146. Breathe and wait. It really sucks.

I only know a tiny bit of what you're going through. Last year, for a week, they thought that the huge kidney tumor they took out of me was the kind that gave me only three years to live. For that week, I was scared and praying and angry and scared. My hubby was, too. It was awful. It's nothing compared to where you are right now, and I'm so very sorry you're going through it.

Sepsis is bad. Most don't make it out of it. We really don't understand it that great, according to Hubby (who covered the unit quite a bit in residency and follows his patients to the unit at one hospital now). That doesn't mean she won't make it, though. She's young and strong, so that's in her favor.

Damn. This really sucks. I wish I could give you a hug right now, a real one, not a cyber one.

See if you can find a good social worker at the hospital to walk you through all of the stuff you need to go through--one who's compassionate and caring but also great at the paperwork. Ask one of the nurses to find you the best. Those social workers are really good in times like these.

I'm so sorry. I'll light a candle at church in the morning in prayer for her light to keep on burning.

[me b zola]

147. Here with you...

:hug:

[lildreamer316]

148. I love you.

I love your family; your beautiful wife and your beautiful children.
My love pours forth to you. Hold on.

[rasputin1952]

149. My thoughts and prayers go out to you...

reinforce yourself with thoghts of the best of times, the warmth and love you've shared.

It is obvious to me that your love is deep and well rooted...that love can carry you through the most terrible of times. I hope and pray for a quick resolution and recovery for your wife. I hope and pray that you may be relived of the pressure of all that is happening.

Your posting this, reminds us all that are real humans behind the user-names. We hurt, we rejoice; we stand, we fall; and the responses in this thread remind us all that when one is afflicted, we are all afflicted.

[Greylyn58]

150. My thoughts and good wishes go out to you and your family

:hug:

[qanda]

151. Begging for a miracle for your wife and you

Please, please, please God!

[democrank]

152. You can get through this, OMC.

Your beloved wife and children need you more than ever. Try to stay strong and remember we`re all here for you.

[pinto]

153. Hi OMC. Thinking of you and yours.

Hang in there. pinto

[Trillo]

154. Best wishes to you and for her recovery.

The great downside of having a life partner, spouse, significant other, etc., is knowing that one of them will always leave before the other, leaving the other one alone and feeling the inevitable sadness of great loss.

There are no words that can help, only positive thoughts for her recovery, that any of us can offer you. Don't lose hope, medical miracles can and do happen at the last moment.

Just love her the best you can for your remaining time together.

[DemReadingDU]

155. saying extra prayers for you and family

[rockyandmax]

156. Sending prayers to you and your family

I know this is difficult, but please try and remain strong and positive. You certainly have everyone here praying for her recovery.


I spent a week in the hospital this spring myself with the doctors worried I was about to go septic. The root cause was different and their fears never actually came true... But I guess I had them worried about why my WBC stayed in the high 20s so long.

[pacalo]

157. I'm sobbing with you, OMC.

Please hang in there. Wish we could all give you a big hug.

:cry:

[slipslidingaway]

158. Sending thoughts of strength to you and your family.

[maddezmom]

159. keeping all in my thoughts

and prayers.

[DeposeTheBoyKing]

160. I'm so sorry this is happening to her and to you

Your pain is palpable. I am praying for your family.

[AmyDeLune]

161. (((HUGS))) ~*(((HEALING VIBES)))*~

[tandot]

162. We are keeping you and your wife in our thougths and prayers.

:grouphug:

[Cleita]

163. Be strong.

We are all joined together in healing prayers for your wife.

[TankLV]

165. Oh god - my thoughts and prayers are with you...

words escape me now...

[BleedingHeartPatriot]

166. {{{{OMC}}}}}

You've spoken so fondly of your wife over the years.

:hug: MKJ

[cally]

167. Just know that you have the support of all of us

I am so sorry for you and your family. I cried reading your post and prayed for your wife. :hug:

[KAZ]

168. We're here for you OMC. Whatever we can do. I can't

imagine what you're going through. Well, actually I can, and that's why I'm misting up too. Be strong for the kids.

Thoughts and prayers.

KAZ

[AmBlue]

169. Hugs to you & prayers for a miracle

Keep hope!!! Miracles happen EVERY day and she is young. Never give up.

God bless...

[opiate69]

170. Words always fail me at times like these.. but know that you are in my thoughts.

:hug:

[peacefreak]

171. Sending love & good vibes to you

and your family. Praying for the best, most beautiful outcome for you all.:hug:

[Canuckistanian]

172. Sending my thoughts and hopes

I don't know what else to say.

:grouphug:

[lisainmilo]

173. Prayers, love. hope...

I am so sorry to hear about this, you and your loved ones have our families deepest prayers and love.

[DemExpat]

174. Love and support for you, your wife, and children.

:hug: :grouphug:

DemEx

[dembotoz]

175. be strong

your wife needs you
your kids need you
you need you.

you just have to tough it out
people will help
they always (or almost always) do

hang in there
just hang in there

[Ava]

176. i'm so sorry

i will say a prayer for you and your wife :(

[porphyrian]

177. If she's half as stubborn as you, she'll make it.

Hang in there.

[fortyfeetunder]

178. My thoughts are with you.

Take care of yourself and your Mrs. She knows she is in good hands.
I am sorry this is happening to her, you and your family.

:hug: :hug:

[Nikia]

179. Continued good thoughts and prayers

For you, her, and your family.

[HCE SuiGeneris]

180. May This Day Find You and Your Wife Stronger

May health grace your family's presence.

[caty]

181. My thoughts are with

you both. Please, take care of yourself for your children. They need you to be as strong as you can. I just don't know what to say that can help. We are all hoping for the best for you both.:grouphug:

[LibraLiz1973]

182. There are words to tell you how hard I am praying for her right now

Just know that we all are.

[ima_sinnic]

183. oh, I am so sorry. my thoughts are with you, and her, and your childfren

[SalmonChantedEvening]

184. Healing thoughts, hope, and love OMC n/y

[Kingshakabobo]

185. Prayers for you, your beautiful wife and your kids,,,,,,,,

:grouphug:

[yellerpup]

186. All my love

All my strength I am sending to you both. Magic would come in really handy right now. I will pray for a miracle.

[Pushed To The Left]

187. I'm sorry you're going through this, OMC. You and your wife are in my thoughts and prayers.

:hug: All of us are pulling for her right now.

[emilyg]

188. I am so very sorry.

[Irishonly]

189. I Am So Sorry

We are all hoping for a miracle.:hug:

[kimpossible]

190. I'm so sorry

Prayers for you both.
:hug:

[mainegreen]

191. Oh my god.

:hug: :cry:

[femmocrat]

192. Sending more prayers, love, and hope your way....

hope everything looks better in the morning..... :hug:

[Sugar Smack]

193. Every minute, OMC.

Every minute of this life is precious. We forget that.

Please know that we are here for you, through pms, phone calls, mail and in person. Your anguish is profounnd, and I really feel for you. I'm so sorry.

:hug:

[FloridaJudy]

194. I so wish I could help.

I'm crying and praying like crazy for her. Life just plain bites sometimes.

If wishes, prayers and good thoughts can help, you and your family have got them.

[Raejeanowl]

195. More Prayers Are Coming

For whatever it's worth, I'm adding my prayers to those of this group.

[WinkyDink]

196. {{{{{{Dear OMC}}}}}}

[JohnnyLib2]

197. Your love for her is so strong. It is helping hold you up. too.

Our hope and prayers are with you both.

[Klukie]

198. Sending you my love and hope....

I am praying for your family.

[Kat45]

199. Oh, wow! I'm so sorry to hear that.

My prayers are with you all. All I can suggest is to pray, ask for strength and comfort for you, your wife, and your kids. Spend as much time with her as you can, and as someone else said, talk to her, so she will hear your voice and feel your love.

[bear425]

200. I know the writing may help, but go be with her. Talk to her.

And comfort her. Miracles do happen. We will be here for you when you need us. :hug:

[Coexist]

201. I am so sorry for you

Please update us. I've never met either of you, but I can barely type through my tears. I am sednign all the good wishes I can your way.

[Maraya1969]

202. I have no words............

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[spacelady]

203. OMC, you are one of my favorite DUers! Please know you are

in my thoughts and prayers; I am sending hope vibes for your lovely wife to pull through this. Your family's love is obviously very deep and strong - this love is what will bring her back to you and back to health.

Your friend, spacelady

[BrklynLiberal]

204. If tears count for anything....we are here, hoping, praying, supporting...

sending all the tears, and prayers and hope and positive energy and white light that is possible.....
:cry: :grouphug:

[Chemical Bill]

205. Love

It's all I got, I got no answers.

Bill

[snailly]

206. ...

Don't know what to say. Just praying hard for you all.

[freefall]

207. I'm praying for a miracle to save her for you and your children. n/t

[likesmountains 52]

208. hold her...she is lucky to be so loved OMC...sending positive energy your way...

[libodem]

209. Unbearable

I'm thinking positive thoughts and saying prayers for both of you.

[pitohui]

210. oh dear, that's so frightening, i hope you get good news soon EOM

,

[SaveOurDemocracy]

211. (((((((((( OMC )))))))))))

Keeping you, your beloved wife, and your children in my heart and thoughts ... praying for that miracle. :hug:

[madamesilverspurs]

212. Prayers

Many, many prayers.

[debbierlus]

213. One moment at a time...one breath at a time....all our prayers & light & positive energy

You are showing tremendous strength just writing this out and allowing people to offer words of love & support. You are doing amazing, just like your beautiful wife. I know it is so hard, but don't take on all your possible future problems right now. All you have to do is what you are doing, one moment, one breath, one step at a time.

I am sure I speak for everyone when I say we are praying for a miracle and sending all our love & thoughts of recovery & healing your wife & family's way.

I am so sorry.

[abq e streeter]

214. More prayers

I prayed for you and her and your children last night. I will do so again tonight... Nothing else I can say .

[Ellen Forradalom]

215. Prayers

Just prayers. That's all. It's in God's hands.

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

216. Hang in there.

Stay strong for your wife and your children. Your strength is needed, and will be for quite a long time.

I know you're up to it. I know SHE'S up to it. It's gonna turn around.

[we can do it]

217. Be There- It Will Help You Both

I will keep you in my thoughts - I lost my dear mom 4 days before the 2004 election.....I was with her a good part of the day before she passed on...It is so hard when you care SO MUCH.....I can only offer my hopes that she will turn around, peace to you both.

[Lefta Dissenter]

218. I don't even know what to say

I am just so incredibly sorry.

It took me until I was 48 years old to find the man I truly love. Everyone deserves to have such love, and nobody should ever have to lose it.

If tears and healing hopes can have any effect at all, the love of your life will be getting better every day. You can see that everyone here is sending every possible positive, healing thought that they can muster.

I hope that we all can somehow help to give you the strength to help your kids through this, help yourself through this, and most particularly, help your wonderful wife.

Wishing you and your family the very best. :hug:

[otherlander]

219. God fucking damn it.

I'm so sorry about this. :hug: Sending you and your family all the vibes I can.

[KT2000]

220. I hope you find strength

from all the people at DU who care so much.

I am so sorry about this. :hug:

[Hand]

221. OMC, you're not alone.

Nor is she. All of us are here for you, sharing your anguish, knowing how very very deeply you love and cherish her and your children. We'll be by your sides every step of the way. Whatever happens, we will be here for you and yours.

Be with her as much as you possibly can and let her draw strength and fearlessness from your love and devotion. Talk to her, tell her all that you feel for her. Let your little ones be with her, too, if you think that's right. And most of all, call on us whenever you need to--we're here, your friends are with you. :hug: :grouphug:

[grasswire]

222. ...

I'm not a very religious person, but I do know that the verse below has sustained many a person in the most dire time of peril:

The Lord is my shepherd
I shall not want
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures
He leadeth me beside the still waters
He restoreth my soul
He leadeth me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake
Yea, though I wander in the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me...
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever
Amen.

I'm lighting a candle for your dear wire.

[Dystopian]

223. Sending love.....

and also praying for a miracle...I believe....
Yes, they do happen...there are prayers coming from many...

peace~

[RFKHumphreyObama]

224. Words are never adequate OMC

I'm so, so sorry. I'm really, really hoping for the best for your wife. I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers:hug: :hug: :hug:

[mike_c]

225. hang in there, brother, hang tough, spend as much time with her as you can....

I'm so sorry for all you're going through, both of you. I'm hoping with you-- hoping for your wife's recovery, hoping for you to be strong and to get through this. :hug:

[gateley]

226. I don't know you, but I know the pain of losing a loved one. You're loved

and in our thoughts and prayers. As far as we can be, we're with you. You're not alone.

[Usrename]

228. You are in my prayers.

.

[Vilis Veritas]

229. Sing Her The Song, OMC. The Wedding Song. Sing.

No Fear.

[SnowCritter]

230. I, too, shall pray for your miracle.

May God bless you all!

[Buzz Clik]

231. Stay strong, OMC.

[colorado_ufo]

232. Praying for you and your wife, OMC.

Sending Reiki healing energy your way, as well. I know you will be strong for her; keep positive thoughts.

Love to you both.

[Patsy Stone]

233. All of my love and good thoughts

for a turnaround, and for you and your family.

[bonito]

234. I'm with you brother

My prayers are with you, hang in there.:grouphug:
on edit, my wife was dealing a death blow from infection in the lungs some time ago, she was going to die, I took it in my own hands, presented the problem to the web, and found the cure in silver ions, some times modern medicine doesn't provide the the cure for reasons that still confound me, but I had to try for bust and it worked. My very best to you and your wife. Peace...

[Danger Mouse]

235. hang in there.

i will pray for you and your wife, if it is wanted. :hug:

[xiamiam]

236. prayers and blessings to you and your wife and children..you are loved and strong and you will get

thru this...surround yourself and your wife and family with fierce intention...expect a healing for all of you..my prayers and intention is for your well being and your wife to get well very quickly...Bless All of you...

[coffeenap]

237. Sending more love.

:hug:

[Whimsy]

238. Your Wife

Dear Friend, My heart aches with you. I have lived through similar circumstances; a husband with 14 years of lymphoma, two stem cell transplants, and several times things looked very bad. The only way I survived was by leaning on good friends. Cry all you want. And keep sharing. You need the collective hugs of this whole group and anyone else who can give you support. Whatever happens, this much is true. Your wife is so lucky to have a husband who adores her so much. I know that's small comfort to you. You planned to grow old together. The thought that you might not is tearing your heart out. When things are at their worst we find a strength we never imagined we had. With two young children you are going to be able to do whatever you need to do. I am praying for you and your wife. I hope things will turn around and her counts begin to climb. She will be with you always, whether in physical form or spirit. Her love can't die. Remember that. Please keep us posted. You can write to me personally if you like, someone who has walked in almost the same shoes. My address is [e-mail]. Write now or write later. You are a precious husband. Your love for your wife is palpable. Keep on loving her. Just keep on loving her. Love, Judy (Whimsy)

[iaviate1]

239. Sending love and good vibes.

We don't know each other, but we're all connected in some way and when you guys are going through tough times, we're here for ya.

[gumby]

240. ......

:hug: :hug: :cry: :hug: :hug:

[Digit]

241. Oh Sweetie, my heart goes out to you. You & your family will be in my prayers.

[lavenderdiva]

242. OMC- you, your wife, and your boys are in my prayers

I hear the fear and desperation in your post. There are so many here who are lifting your family up in prayer. I am praying that your wife's cells will begin fighting the infection, and that she will be well. I am also praying that the Lord would be very close to you in the coming days, and give you the strength that you will surely need. My heart goes out to you. Please know how much we all care.... :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[lumberjack_jeff]

243. Prayers to you and your family OMC.

:cry:

[in_cog_ni_to]

245. Oh G-d, OMC, I am so sorry! Try to keep positive thoughts and just know you are not alone!

I wish you and your family all the best and pray for your wife's speedy recovery.:hug:

[nofurylike]

246. you're going to feel us all holding your hands and each others'

and hers and your family's and feel us all sending amazing golden light and love to you and her and through you and her and send it all to her.

we're with you and her.


here.....

[zalinda]

247. Right now I am seeing you walking out of that hospital

pushing that wheelchair with your wife in it. Hospital rules, you know, everyone must leave in a wheelchair when they are discharged. I can see the love in both your eyes, as you look at each other "that was a close one", you are thinking. If prayers can keep your strength up to face this set back, you will have them from this space in the Internet universe.

zalinda

[struggle4progress]

248. Thinking of you both

[windbreeze]

249. We are all family...and we feel your pain...

I will say a prayer for your wife, for you, and for your kids...so sorry to hear you and yours are going through such a bad time, hopefully it will turn around quickly...please take care...wb

[GoddessOfGuinness]

250. Dear God...

Please help OMC's wife pull through her illness. Make her well again. Please fill OMC with the strength he needs to keep going, and to be the loving father his dear children and wife need right now. Help us all to be good friends to OMC and his family...to be loving and supportive in every possible way, and in impossible ways, if necessary.

Amen

[QueenOfCalifornia]

251. This is the most difficult

post I have ever made. I have been following this thread since it was started but haven't added any of my thoughts. I just haven't known what to say. The overwhelming seriousness of this has me frozen. But I really do want to say something.

Dear OMC,

I do not want to pour out hollow platitudes, I want to reach out and hug you and hold your hand. I want to let you cry and to sit with you and be strong for what you are going through. I want to wrap you in a warm blanket and bring you some hot soup and just listen to your thoughts and fears. I do not pretend to have any real advice, that would be presumptuous. I want you to know, that although we have never met, I really am out here feeling for your situation. I want you to know that I am here, in San Diego California, thinking about you, your wife and children. I will send good hope and feelings your way. My heart goes out to you and your dear family. My hope is that your sweetheart wife recover and come home.

Love and Peace-

P.K.

[spoony]

252. ...

I'm so sorry, mate. Reading that raw pain in your post hit me right in the gut. I join others in thoughts and prayers for your family.

[Th1onein]

254. She is in my prayers, OMC

n/t

[Reterr]

255. OMC I sincerely hope you and yours will be fine

:hug:

(We have disagreed and argued before, but that doesn't make the sincere good wishes and prayers I send your way any less valid. I hope you make it through this horrible situation).

[orleans]

256. my own tears bear witness to your sadness

my friend, i hope and wish only the best for your wife and for you.

[OneBlueSky]

257. much love, OMC . . . you and she are receiving immense amounts of prayers and . . .

good thoughts . . . miracles DO happen . . . never give up hope, and come back here for as much support as you need . . . God bless . . .

[intaglio]

258. ((((((((HUG)))))))

There is nothing more terrible than the pain and despair of a loved one and that goes for your whole family. You know of hers and will be hiding yours, she knows of yours and will be hiding hers - together you will be being strong for the other, together you will be trying to save those you love.

Friends will support both of you in any way they can; strangers, like myself, will offer what comfort we can share.

The wonder of the discovery of love between the two of you will remain. Back then, before you married, you found you were not alone; your children came and you found you were not alone. Now the two of you and your family will find you are not alone in the wider world. Whatever the outcome of this terrible sickness, when it is over, revel in the discovery of the wide world of caring that comes from family, friends, enemies and strangers.

[nofurylike]

259. k. OMC's earlier update and a beautiful photo of Stacey:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=105x6958336

[Horse with no Name]

260. I'm very sorry.

You and I don't agree on anything else, but know that you are in my prayers.
I have seen what can only be explained as miracles happen.
I hope with all my heart that one will come your way.

[Horse with no Name]

261. I'm very sorry.

You and I don't agree on anything else, but know that you are in my prayers.
I have seen what can only be explained as miracles happen.
I hope with all my heart that one will come your way.

[Gman]

262. Our prayers are with you, your wife and your family

[UpInArms]

263. ...

:grouphug:

[GenDem]

264. .....

:hug:

[toddaa]

265. Hang in there man

This is incredibly sad.

[Norma Druid]

266. God Bless You!

What else is there to say but that I am praying? One thing I can say is type, vent, we are here for you. Maybe we can´t do much, but we can listen.

[Crabby Appleton]

267. My best wishes for your wife

and you and your family.

[somewhere_out_there]

268. breathe....don't try to think about all of the "how can I'....

one second at a time and things will come. All of the prayers that can be sent your way will help you and your family through this horrible time. May God bless you all.

[yellowdogintexas]

269. I did not leave a note before, but first thing I checked was for an

update, so you and your wife and children have been heavy on my mind.

God's Grace be with you

[Deep13]

270. ...

:cry: :grouphug:

[aikoaiko]

271. I wish you the strength to care for your wife, your children, and yourself

OMC, call on your friends and family to help.

[Unca Jim]

272. Illness

is so horrible because it's all out of your hands. You can do what the doctors tell you, try to keep as healthy as possible, and still a setback like this can com out of nowhere.

I'm praying with you that this is only a setback, but everyone else is right; just be there with her and for her right now.

Everything else can wait until later.

[Phillycat]

273. When I woke up this morning, I prayed for your wife

I visualized the white blood cells streaming out of her bone marrow and flying at light speed to her lungs. Killing the pneumonia cells and clearing the lung passages. I visualized the increased oxygen flow flushing her cheeks and fingertips rosy.

She WILL get better. Believe it and feel it.

[Melissa G]

274. ((((OMC)))) adding you , your wife and family to my prayers

May you all feel blessed and supported in this your time of need.

[ljm2002]

275. Praying for a miracle here...

...may all of our prayers be heard and your wife's healing begin.

So glad you are able to be with her, to touch her with your love in her time of need.

I am so sorry this is happening to you and am really, really praying for you both.

[Blue Fire]

276. May our combined support bring you hope and strength....

My family and I are with you, Stacy, and your children in spirit, along with the entire DU community. We truly hope the sun rises on better days for you and your beautiful family.
:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

[derby378]

277. ginbarn and I are pulling for you, OMC

ginbarn turned septic back in 2003 while we were on vacation in San Antonio. Happened at 2:30am on Sunday morning. At first we thought it was a killer stomach ache, but ginbarn told me that pain was radiating all across her body, and her strength was fading fast. She convinced me to call 911, and she was rushed to a nearby hospital. Her doctor later told her that if her septicemia had developed while we were still in open country, she'd probably be dead.

It still hasn't sank into me how close to death my own beloved wife was. I'd rather not think about it. I would be so lost without her. But I can definitely understand what you're going through, because I was there. THERE IS HOPE. HANG IN THERE. I saw the recent numbers from your most recent post, and that is great news, indeed. Please hang in there.

[uberllama42]

278. I'm so sorry.

I wish there was something I could do for you.

[CrispyQ]

279. ...

Holding you & your family close in my thoughts. :hug:

[elizfeelinggreat]

280. ...

: saying a prayer for you both :

[Sparkly]

281. Your and yours are in my thoughts...

I so wish I could ease your pain. :hug: :cry: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[LiberalEsto]

283. Blessings, love & light

to all of you, from the bottom of my heart.

We're with you.

[Swede]

284. OMC you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Best wishes to you and your family.

[Catshrink]

285. Sending love and best wishes your way.

:grouphug:

[0rganism]

286. She is fortunate to have you with her in her time of need

You and your children will lend her strength to protect herself. She knows she is loved and in your hearts and the hearts of her birth family, and in the prayers of so many she has never met, and this will only make her stronger.

You will be closer to her now and in times to come than ever before, for you are reminded of how important she is to your family. You will be brave, you will discover new inner courage you could not have known you had.

You have my very best wishes for her speedy and complete recovery!

[riona]

287. Please, please be strong, be loving

You can and will get through this. And, from what I've read, DU will be there for you no matter what.

[bluescribbler]

288. I understand. Cancer treatments are very toxic.

I nearly lost my wife to IL-2 four years ago. IL-2, or Interleukin 2, is a biological therapy which, at present, offers the only hope for a "cure" for patients with metastatic melanoma or renal cell carcinoma. About 20% of patients achieve a response, or shrinkage of tumors. Of those, about 1/3 achieve a complete response, or tumors disappearing. Of that select group, perhaps 1/4 experience a durable response, or the tumors stay disappeared. Patients who remain tumor free for two years after treatment typically die from some other cause, not the cancer.

But IL-2 is one of the most toxic weapons in the oncologist's arsenal. Stephanie spent a week in the hospital, undergoing 24/7 infusion. She gained about 18kg, all from fluid retention. She was bloated, exhausted, and pretty much out of it the whole time. She doesn't remember much from that week, but she remembers one thing clearly. The Monday after the infusion ended, and her weight was back to normal, I drove to the hospital to bring her home. When I got there, nurses were hooking her up to a cardiac monitor. The doctor explained that blood tests showed that her cardiac enzymes were elevated. He called in a cardiac specialist for consultation. His diagnosis was cardiomyopathy and arrhythmia. She was then transferred to the cardiac wing. She stayed there for three more days until the docs felt she was safe to go home. One month later, with much trepidation, she returned to the hospital for another week of IL-2. Fortunately, there was no repeat of the cardiac episode. Unfortunately, she did not respond to the treatment.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

[blondeatlast]

289. Prayers for all of you. God, my friend, I wish you didn't have to endure this. nt

[codjh9]

290. Prayers, good thoughts and empathy

Hey - In the past 10 years, I've had cancer twice, my ex-wife had it, I lost my brother to it, my dad passed away from emphysema, and I just took care of my mother for almost 10 months until she passed away from it (cancer). So I can relate far more than I'd like... I wish her, you, and the rest of the family ALL the best, and I will say a prayer too. Feel my hands on your shoulders, expressing sympathy and empathy.

[barbtries]

291. all my best

pulling for your wife and you and your children. amen

[LosinIt]

292. Loving her, loving your children, & loving yourself are the best things you can do @ this point

Your DU family is with you. I am sending you all of the good will I can muster. Your children will need you no matter what, so try to take the best care of yourself that you can. I know it sounds hollow, but let us know whatever little thing that we can do to help.

Loving thoughts,

Micki

[helderheid]

293. OMC, I am keeping her in the Light

I'm crying for you but I will visualize her healthy. If you need anything, let me know. I am so sorry. There are no words.

[ChazII]

294. Prayers being said. n/t

[southern_belle]

295. I'm so sorry....

(((HUGS))) :hug:

[mntleo2]

296. My tears are for you and yours, OMC

...I want you to know there are complete strangers like me who are praying their hearts out for you right now. I have no other words except what you wrote broke my heart. I pray you find the strength to look that terror right in the eye and let it know it will not win! I am so glad you had this place to come to and when you looked you found some people who really want to care for you. You are not alone.

Love to you, and yours,

Cat In Seattle

[Dorian Gray]

297. OMC

you have all both my thoughts and prayers. I truly wish for your wife's speedy recovery, and I pray for your strength during this difficult time. Please stay strong, and don't worry about babbling on. We're here for you.

[WildEyedLiberal]

298. If there is any love and justice in the universe, let there be a miracle here

ALL of my good thoughts, prayers, and hopes are with you and your wife - STAY POSITIVE - envision her recovering and beating this. I will do the same. Miracles can happen.