So I was lying in bed thinking about loss...

[Haole Girl]

..and realized I don't handle loss well. And wondered if other people handle it better because they are stronger or because they embrace all of what life has to offer-- and they realize loss is also part of life.

While my coffee was brewing, I checked my email. I received an email from someone who'd been a friend of mine. They felt they could no longer be my friend and had a perfectly good explanation why.

But I can't stop crying. And, fuck it, why do I wear my emotions on my sleeve anyway? I'm just seen as a pathetic, needy, drama queen, around here now.

But, really, what makes some people just shrug it off? Why can't I be that way?

:cry:

[zabet]

1. ...

:hug:

[Haole Girl]

2. Thanks

:hug:

[Shell Beau]

3. Shrugging it off will come back and bite you in the ass later! It is best

to deal with it now!! :hug:

[Haole Girl]

5. I'm not sure what I'm doing is dealing with it

Thank you for your perspective. :hug:

[Shell Beau]

7. I hope you feel better soon!

[Haole Girl]

10. I'll be fine, thanks.

I'm getting out of town in a couple of days... and it is perfect timing.

[IndianaJones]

4. some people just internalize it well. it still affects them, they just don't show it. nt.

[Haole Girl]

6. That's how I wish I could be. n/t

[IndianaJones]

8. some people that are like that probably wish they could express their emotions like you. nt.

[Haole Girl]

9. Thank you for trying to make me feel better.

:hug:

[Shell Beau]

11. I am a person that internalizes things! I can assure you there is no plus to it.

Sometimes you just really need to let it all out!

[IndianaJones]

13. me too, and often it is not what I would call a strength. nt.

[Shell Beau]

15. Yea, I feel it is a weakness actually. Scared to let it out!

[redqueen]

12. I have no answers for you...

I can't even relate to the feeling...

I do hope you feel better soon. :hug:

[Haole Girl]

16. Which feeling? Of being a drama queen? lol

I'm sorry... I know you are trying to help. Your post just struck me as sort of funny. But it did get me to stop crying... so, hey, thanks! :hug:

[redqueen]

17. YAY!

Nah, I meant the loss... I tend to view everything in my life as going or already gone... so when something or someone goes... I always sort of expect it.

I can certainly relate to the drama queenness! :)

:grouphug:

[SPKrazy]

14. sorry to hear

have my own loss to deal with today

take care

[unpossibles]

18. don't sweat it - it's healthier to let yourself experience you emotions, imo

plus, if it helps - and I know it doesn't at the moment - that person probably is unaware of the reasons they should not jettison your friendship. Their reasons - or rationalization likely - seems legitimate to you now, but there's a balance between taking that to heart for the right reasons (such as determining if there is something you want to change about yourself) and not beating yourself up for things outside of your control.

Again, I know it's easy to say that, but I am the same way with loss. Take care.


:grouphug:

[Haole Girl]

20. Thank you

It did catch me off-guard. Mainly, I think, because I was just thinking about loss, only seconds before opening that email. *sigh* Why can't I be psychic in a good way? You know, like picking the winning power ball lottery numbers! ;-) :hug:

[Redbear]

19. I cant imagine anyone not wanting to be your friend.

AS for loss. I dont do well either. So at least you have company.

[Haole Girl]

21. Aww..

What a kind and sweet thing for you to say. :hug: