The last couple of weeks have really been challenging to my sense of well being, which I generally measure by how effective I am being in doing what good I can.
I'm sitting at my desk job also thinking about what groceries I need to buy, what birthday gift to get for my nephew, trying to plan a multi day hike over Memorial day weekend, on and on...
Meanwhile scores of thousands are died and suffering from the cyclone that his Myanmar, the earthquake in China, not to mention the unrelenting horrors in Iraq and the middle east overall, the severe tornadoes in the US, not the mention the unrelenting hardships of those suffering from this f-up'd economy...now I'm reading on the BBC about the horrible attacks on foreigners in South Africa.
I posted this today in the Editorials section where it is sinking like a stone: "Humanizing nature's fury"
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=103&topic_id=360318&mesg_id=360318It's a good piece but the sentiment which is close to my own isn't helping today. Frack I feel useless and stupid for making choices that have lead me to this silly career instead of putting me in a better position to help.
I've donated all I could (though I worry if it is getting to where it needs to get in the case of the Cyclone victims at least), and now I sit in my comfortable office chair and feel like shit.
Sorry, I know this is a bummer for the lounge but I had to let it out somewhere somehow (on top of it all I'm going through a divorce and the rest of my family is also out of reach emotionally as my mother and sister fight and act crazy - I think they may need professional help) so I have no where really to turn at the moment in real life.
Frack, frack, frack, frack.