I'm having terrible insomnia and I hate my job.

[lightningandsnow]

I've been drifting in and out of sleep all night, and now I'm really solidly awake. It's 3:46 and I have to get up at 6. I'm online because it's my last resort trick for making myself tired. I'd call in sick because I am terrible at functioning on so little sleep, but I'd never hear the end of it from my boss about how I "don't sound sick". Or she'll assume I'm hung over. I'm probably going to have to deal with her making hangover jokes all day, since she's like that.

I'm starting school in 2 weeks and she wants me to be in the office every waking moment I'm not in class. And the commute is brutal - I'm over an hour away. I don't mind the commute on its own, but she wasn't content to trust me that I can work Wednesdays until 4 (I have class at 6) and Fridays all day - she made me print out my schedule and give it to her. So now I'm pretty sure I'll also be working the two days of the week that I don't have class until 2. And it's too much for me, but I don't know how to tell her that.

I know I sound like a petulant child complaining about my job. I'm really lucky to have one, but I'm sick of her throwing tasks at me constantly and treating absolutely everything as it's top priority, working from 8:30 to almost 7 some days, her hanging over me all the time while I work, her snapping at me constantly, the way she talks to me, and the stupid assumptions she makes about everyone. She doesn't want a receptionist; she wants a personal assistant.

Thanks for reading my vent. Goodnight, DU. :hi:

[HipChick]

1. I'm right there with you...

cant call in sick...already taking friday off and all of next week...

[kimi]

2. I'm sorry

Insomnia sucks. I've dealt with it all my life. Even worked night shifts as an RN just to keep up with it. Then, get this, when we moved to Japan, on the other side of the frickin world, you'd think the internal clock would reset itself. Uh-uh. Had it worse than ever.

There is nothing quite as soul-sucking as drifting in and out of sleep and never really resting. You are certainly NOT a petulant child complaining, it's a valid medical complaint, IMO. See a doc, I know medical advice is frowned on here, so that's all I'll say. You gotta deal with it before it deals with you. Take care.