I need some encouragement in doing the right thing.

[jakestake]

Long story short....I have an addiction/compulsion to a very dishonest behavior and I have recently acquired a new friend who has the exactly same addiction/compulsion that I have. It's almost scary how alike we are in our needs and our reasons, etc.

During the course of our conversations, my new friend has expressed regret in engaging in this behavior and wonders why she wants to continue playing with fire, yet her brain works just like mine and even through the guilt and regret and wanting to do the right thing, I know that she will do the wrong thing just like I always do.

So...I'm conflicted. I can further my own addiction/compulsion with her, whom I have grown to really like and enjoy, or I could tell her that I really care about her and want to help her stop doing this behavior if she really wants to stop. I am beyond help, personally. This is the way I am and I will always be. I don't have the same desire to stop that she has nor do I have a way to stop.

I do think I can be of help to her. The risk here is that if I mention helping her stop, and she just finds another addict to engage in the behavior with and I am out of the picture. F*ck...I want to do the right thing and ask her if I can help her try to stop, but the damaged part of my brain would rather just succumb to my addiction again.

I just need encouragement. I don't need people telling me to stop, like I said, I'm too far gone but I would like to help someone if I am able. Not sure what I need, just wanted to vent, and trying to clear my brain. I'm not really in a big hurry here, as we're friends and taking things slow, but I'm just trying to process everything and I want to do the right thing.

uggghhh :(

[REP]

1. The right thing to do is to stay away from her

But you already know that.