Race
Because I have Native American ancestry on both sides of my family, I am just "exotic" enough and turn brown easily enough that I have "passed" in places where darker features are common. In Italy, Quebec and in Texas nobody would look at me twice. My mother used to be able to pass for African American for the same reasons and when she had permed hair.
The Spousal Unit on the other hand. Tall, blue eyed, fair skinned. Although it's been assumed we were both good practicing Jews at Jewish events.
The Houston adventure was the most interesting. My father was dying in the VA hosptial and I needed to do something for a little while, other than sit and watch him struggle. So I went out and hopped on the first bus into the city. I'm a huge fan of public transportation and it's the only benefit I see to living in a city...but not enough to actually make me leave the farm.
Nobody looked at me twice when I got on. I got the glance up and that was it. And I didn't think anything about that, people usually ignore you on buses anyway. Some were occupied reading: books, newspaper.I think one lady was crocheting. Most were just sitting as you do.
The route went through a... run down area. People left, people got on. And because I am a people watcher, I began to notice that when Hispanic looking people got on, there was the glance and return to whatever. When fair haired or fair skinned people got on, there was a more thorough examination, sometimes with a feeling of "what is that person doing getting on here?"
It dawned on me then, that I "passed". It was an interesting feeling.
Sexuality
I have a friend who is of the opinion that sexuality can be learned and unlearned. That the mental parts of sexual attraction can be retrained, the same way one can be trained, through stimulus and response, to like liver or to enjoy something that other people find unpleasant.
And I agree, those things can be done. You can learn to not be afraid of spiders. But sexuality isn't just a mental response, there is a whole host of physiological responses that go along with that. The whole brain and body is involved.
So after arguing with him, quite heatedly, I finally said: Okay. You think a person can change their sexuality and enjoy being with the gender that is opposite of their inital attractions? Fine. Then you do it. You mentally train yourself to be sexually attracted to men and when I see you kiss one with longing and passion, then I'll believe you. Besides, you can always train yourself back, right?
Last I've heard on that subject.
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