I need a favor.

[murielm99]

Please send me some positive thoughts and prayers.

I do need to spend some time mostly alone for a few months yet. I need the solitude to heal and to rethink my purpose. But I have a hard time not falling into depression. I only see my social worker once every three months now. She thinks I have the tools I need. I think that is mostly correct. But there are hard, hard days.

[OneGrassRoot]

1. Bless you, muriel....

Positive thoughts and prayers on the way.

Supportive hugs as well....

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[mysticalchick]

2. She's right, Muriel

You DO have everything you need inside you. I know it's hard to remember that but you do - we ALL do - but are so accustomed to looking outside for help and guidance. Sending you love and light - you'll find your way.

:grouphug:

[BanzaiBonnie]

3. Onto the prayer list you go

I'll light a candle too.

[Delphinus]

4. {{hugs}}

and loving energies are coming your way, Muriel.

One thing to always remember: even when you are alone, you really are never alone. :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

5. I"m sending, muriel.

Much love and light to you!

I'm so sorry that you're hurting. :(

:hug:

[MorningGlow]

6. Sorry to hear this, Muriel

Sending light to sustain you as you journey through a touch of darkness. Embrace your solitude and welcome the healing. But remember you're never alone--we'll be right beside you in spirit. :hug:

[laylah]

Coming your way.

:hug:

Jenn

[laylah]

7. Coming your way.

:hug:

Jenn

[murielm99]

8. Thanks everyone for all your kind thoughts and prayers.

I received communications yesterday that were mixed. Some were excellent, and some brought back some very bad memories.

I now think that some of my bad feelings are coming from a physical problem. I was supposed to go in for my third cold laser treatment today. I was doing exceptionally well not smoking. The last month had some tough problems, so I have been backsliding. I set my mind and made the third appointment for today. But I woke up with blood in my urine, and I may be running a temperature. I may have a urinary tract or a kidney infection, so I am going to the doctor. If this physical problem was developing yesterday, it may have set my emotions into a spin. The physical can effect our mental outlook so much.

Thanks for all your kindness.

[OneGrassRoot]

12. There seem to be so many kidney/urinary issues going on now?

That's so interesting....

You're so right though that our physical impacts our mental/emotional sooooo very much.

Be well....be good to you....:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

9. ...

:hug::hug::hug:

Edit: What might you need to release in order to get well? Internally that is...

[Myrina]

10. I understand where you're at.

It's comforting - and scary at the same time - to know that the next steps are up to you.

Please know that you have friends here who support you. O8)

[BlueIris]

11. ((((( muriel ))))) nt

[northernlights]

13. more hugs headed your way...

depression is a lifelong battle. You'll get more adept at using the tools and working through stuff.

And being physically ill has a *major* effect on your feelings, just as bad feelings leave you more susceptible to illness.

Be kind to yourself. When you are feeling better physically, make time to take a walk every day if you can. Reconnecting with nature, the rhythm of each step...and each breath...can bring relief and peace.

This is a week to go deep, work through...and finally let go of that which we no longer need.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

14. Love and light to you...

:hug: