So, how is everyone feeling this week?

[OneGrassRoot]

The energies fluctuate so much, and seem to affect different people in vastly different ways, that I'm curious how this family is faring?

For me, each day is like a rollercoaster ride as far as the energy goes....very intense. Either intense lightness or intense heaviness. But, like many of you, I'm learning to ride it out and know it shall change. Balance, balance....

Today feels like a portal of some sort? I know it's a full moon, but it feels something else is going on.

Anyone else sensing anything different about today, or this week? (plus, I'm about to be "in power," so it feels extra intense)

Sending every one big hugs of love and support!!!

[japple]

1. For the longest time, I've been feeling like I have one foot

in two different dimensions. I don't know any other way to describe it. Makes me wish I could "defrag" my brain.

[OneGrassRoot]

2. defrag......

funny you say that, as that's how I've been describing things for the last year: fragmented.

Things feel very fragmented, but I'm very hopeful the fragments are now coming together. :)

:hi:

[Shallah Kali]

3. last night as as I was falling asleep something happened

maybe it was a dream or maybe it was not. I felt my guides and they said it was time to choose again stay or go on with the shift. it is like some have said like the realities are separating and we are given multiple chances to go in either direction. I felt like I was abandoning my post (:cries:) but I said I choose to move forward and consciously and deliberately grounded into the best possible future earth energy/grid that I could connect with. Still feel selfish for this today and a little spacey. there are many steps (or portals or doorways) along the way where people will be asked this again on one level or another of their consciousness.

[OneGrassRoot]

6. That's powerful, Shallah....

This feels a bit like deja vu. I think we had a discussion about this recently?

Your sharing here reminded me that I had this same "vibe" several weeks ago....that I was repeating a cycle from about 10 years ago, and someone here wisely suggested I was being the opportunity to "choose again."

I realize I no longer have the sense of deja vu from 10 years ago; it seems I am on a different track now. A portal has opened....

BTW, I don't know why you would feel selfish? You are a way-shower....for which I am grateful.

:grouphug:

[Shallah Kali]

8. I don't know why, I feel like I am abandoning a trust

that I promised not to leave until everyone else got out first. or something like that. If I am breaking a vow I accept any consequences because I can't stand the way things are now in the world. I can't wait for everyone to get their act together before taking at least minimal care of myself.

life is one big choose your own adventure book. with important things we will always be given another chance. with karma speeded up more and more chances are offered in one lifetime. if you feel like you are in a meat grinder it is because you are so as to process as much as possible as fast as possible from lifetime after lifetime of unfinished bits and pieces. we can't bring the higher dimensions down to earth (or raise earth up to higher dimensions) if we keep holding on to stuff that no longer serves, maladaptive behaviors that got us through horrific times but won't function in the new energy. It is like trying to run windows on an abacus. :bomb: :crazy: it just won't work.

tonight I am going to ask my guides to defrag my harddrive, clean out the trash and see what happens. maybe they can reinstal my operating system Shallah 1.0 Soulforce from before repeated crashes corrupted the program.

[OneGrassRoot]

9. .....

:hug:

[FirstLight]

31. the feeling of wanting NOT to leave anyone behind...

I think is a residual emotion from Atlantis & Lemuria...because SO much had to be left behind. I still have dreams about "going down with the ship" because i felt I owed it to the people somehow...


Right on with the speeded up karma concept! (lol "Clear a dozen lifetimes in just 30 days!" )
and the maladaptive behaviors are truly "outmoded" so we get to re-learn how to do it from our 'better angelic selves'

I have been saying lately when someone brings up an old story or emotional pattern: "That's SOOOO last Millenium!"
:rofl:

[Shallah Kali]

33. a friend of mine says dying for causes is piecean age

living for your cause is aquarian.

somewhere in some lifetime (or more than one) I probably took vows of this sort whether it was for certain family and friends, a group or all. Don't know. I just know it hurt to say I release this vow. I can't live in this kind of world so things have got to change including letting go of agreements to be the last person out no matter how many times it kills me.

a whole lotta stuff is getting shook loose and i feel it isn't just me that is shifting. deep collective shifts are happening like geological plates. if enough people go with the process it will be ok but those who resists and hold on to their old stuff boy oh boy is it gonna hurt.....

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

4. I feel things are opening up

thanks much to you for being the Opener, One Grass Root. I'm dealing with health issues, which has put a bit of a blanket over being able to assess my inner feelings--and yet I still sense the Llght. And, in practicing the Four Agreements, I'm finding they work!

[OneGrassRoot]

5. psssst......

I'm actually checking a few things re: the laptop for the foundation. I'll let you know if I strike gold. :)

Hope you start feeling better.....:hug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

7. Wow!

That would really make our day--week--month!!!! :)

[OneGrassRoot]

14. btw...

sorry that link didn't turn out to be helpful. I thought they donated them for free; I should have read further. Sorry....

We'll keep looking though and hopefully someone will manifest what you need very soon. :)

[Myrina]

10. Definitely on a roller coaster ....

... over the weekend I was doing remarkably well, very positive ... then by 4pm Monday I was massively depressed. Didn't get out of bed until 1:00 today and cried on/off most of the day.

In between surfing the job sites and making phone calls, I am researching the basics for my non-prof & unfortunately also am feeling overwhelmed in that aspect. The State of IN has closed the application process for grants for 2009 so at least I'm not racing the clock. However, my bank account is.

So yeah, I wish we'd cross whatever threshold it is that we're on the precipice of, because this roller coaster is making me dizzy and nauseous. :(

[OneGrassRoot]

11. I'm so sorry, Myrina.....

:hug:

It has really turned into a miserable night here.

It's my daughter's 16th birthday and she's been in bed all day with a 102 fever (thankfully, it feels like the fever is breaking now; her skin is clammy, and she is asleep, thank goodness); the Alabama shooting is right where my family is down there (where my grandmother is in the nursing home), but it seems everyone is okay, although the one sheriff with minor wounds is a cousin; I talked to Pittsburgh relatives and I realized they are Rush Limbaugh dittoheads and don't even want them involved in Wishadoo, which breaks my heart.

*sighs*

Tomorrow is another day.....:grouphug:

But the good news is that Mark officially starts his job tomorrow. :) Believe me, if HE has gotten a job, there is hope for everyone looking. ;)

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

12. Oh dear!

I'm so sorry today has been so stressful for you! Wishadoo is a great site with great potential--I'm so sorry that your relatives aren't interested. And I'm really sorry about your 16 year old. Is tonight when she was to see the actress she wanted to see? I hope it is this weekend instead! If not---how long will the actress be in town? Perhaps if you contact the theater, she could at least give your daughter an autograph.

And it is GREAT about Mark!!!!!!! :bounce:

[OneGrassRoot]

13. Thank goodness....

the Patti Lupone event is a week from tomorrow. I'm going to take your EXCELLENT advice tomorrow and try to reach the people at the venue. Thanks much. :)

Yes, when I announced that Mark got a job last Friday (?), it was 99.9% sure but that 0.1% was weighing on us more heavily than we realized. He got the official word today that he is indeed hired, and starts tomorrow.

That is such a huge relief. I'm sure you all can imagine, as some of you are struggling with the same challenge, or have at some point.

I truly mean it that it's a miracle. It's too long of a story to share here, but I am sincere when I say that everyone should have tremendous hope given Mark finding a good job. Truly. :)

Hugs to you, Ayesha....:hug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

15. Keep visualizing the light

and know that there are no coincidences.

And I consider you a treasure and am so grateful for the creative miracle of Wishadoo!

[Myrina]

16. Dearest OGR ~

Blessings and white light to you and those close to you -- what's happening around you now puts my little traumas in their place.

Thank you again for all the beautiful and selfless work you're doing for the Universe.


O8) :hug:

[Kind of Blue]

17. The Waters of March

I'd been pondering your question for a day now, OneGrassRoot, trying to pinpoint a sort of melancholia, very unlike me but definitely not depression. I figured it was caused by a fight with the flu and then cold. But there was something else. I've been feeling like I felt a few years ago when I surrendered my life to the Universe and chose to be as fully guided as I could be by Her. Like an acceptance of everything that encompasses life, everything became almost mundane but simultaneously filled with meaning and incredible beauty that I can't express.

Then while working a few minutes ago, it hit me - The Waters of March describes it. If you you haven't heard of it, it's a song written by the late Brazilian composer/musician "Tom" Antonio Carlos Jobim, a stream of consciousness of just stuff but the promise of Spring.

Perhaps that's what I'm feeling the change, the Shift, the promise of spring.

Here's a version I like by Suzanne Vega but Love the Brazilian singers the best. Follow and hope you enjoy the lyrics below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDzkf9uX0do&playnext_from=PL&feature=PlayList&p=6DB4DBCFFE9AF54A&playnext=1&index=82
Waters of March

A stick, a stone,
It's the end of the road,
It's the rest of a stump,
It's a little alone

It's a sliver of glass,
It is life, it's the sun,
It is night, it is death,
It's a trap, it's a gun

The oak when it blooms,
A fox in the brush,
A knot in the wood,
The song of a thrush

The wood of the wind,
A cliff, a fall,
A scratch, a lump,
It is nothing at all

It's the wind blowing free,
It's the end of the slope,
It's a beam, it's a void,
It's a hunch, it's a hope

And the river bank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the end of the strain,
The joy in your heart

The foot, the ground,
The flesh and the bone,
The beat of the road,
A slingshot's stone

A fish, a flash,
A silvery glow,
A fight, a bet,
The range of a bow

The bed of the well,
The end of the line,
The dismay in the face,
It's a loss, it's a find

A spear, a spike,
A point, a nail,
A drip, a drop,
The end of the tale

A truckload of bricks
in the soft morning light,
The shot of a gun
in the dead of the night

A mile, a must,
A thrust, a bump,
It's a girl, it's a rhyme,
It's a cold, it's the mumps

The plan of the house,
The body in bed,
And the car that got stuck,
It's the mud, it's the mud

Afloat, adrift,
A flight, a wing,
A hawk, a quail,
The promise of spring

And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the promise of life
It's the joy in your heart

[OneGrassRoot]

21. Oh my....

I LOVE that song. I hadn't heard of it before. It's really soothing, very lovely....thank you for introducing me to it.

The shift, the promise of spring....that's very soothing and lovely, too. :)

:hug:

[Kind of Blue]

27. I'm glad you like it! Your OP

certainly led to good therapy for me. Thanks, OneGrassRoot :hug: Melancholia gone, nice to deal with feelings and put
'em where they properly belong!

[Sanity Claws]

18. A roller coaster

to steal the words of fellow ASAH'er Myrina.
Earlier this week, I had high hopes that things were opening up, as someone else posted. It looked like I was getting contacts and it might actually lead to a job. Then I got a quick rejection from an employer, even though a contact had suggested that I contact this particular person at this organization.
I went from hopeful to tearful in a few hours. Damn.

[OneGrassRoot]

22. ....

I'm sorry, Sanity. That sucks, to be blunt. My hope for you is that something completely unexpected and joyful, without any hesitation, falls into your lap tomorrow.

I hear you though....I really do. :hug: It's very hard to maintain sanity and any semblance of being "centered" in these energies.

It is for me anyway.

[northernlights]

19. the defrag wish is a good one...

I've been saying for about 2 years I wish I could defrag my brain to free up some space and get my thoughts more organized and accessible.

I haven't been on a roller-coaster. I have been in a state of intense heaviness. I haven't slept well since Monday night, or been able to focus on my manifestation project, but there are also points where you need to let the image go to the universe. So maybe this is one of those points.

Mostly, I know I'm done with Maine and am past ready to leave.

The full moon is in my 12th house.

[Sanity Claws]

20. The full moon was in my 12th house too

What do you understand its significance to be? I couldn't figure it out.

[I Have A Dream]

24. Here's some information that I found on-line.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/fullmooninhouses.html

I don't know how accurate it is...

[OneGrassRoot]

23. I have the same question as Sanity... :)

about the full moon in your 12th house.

Does that lend to the intense heaviness you're experiencing?

I hope things lighten for you, northernlights. Being in an area you aren't comfortable is soooooooo hard.

I'm in NC....a very RED part of NC. I've wanted to leave here for 16 years now but, like you, I've just let it go.

I have no friends here that I get together with in person. That's why this group is so special...it's a supportive gathering, full of unconditional love. And it will follow along with us regardless of where we are physically. That's such a wonderful gift. :)

Thank you for being here. Please know I send real hugs your way......:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

25. Here's some information that I found on-line.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/fullmooninhouses.html

I don't know how accurate it is...

(I also posted it in response to Sanity Claws' post.)

[northernlights]

26. My notes are that the 12th house

deals with destiny, reckoning, the unconscious, where you've been...

IHAD's link says this:

"Full Moon in the Twelfth House

Circumstances are such that you have an overwhelming need to be alone. You've been busy with all sorts of everyday activities, deeply involved in your work and routines. It's time to balance your life with some down time—otherwise, you simply don't feel whole. Issues come to light that originate from deep within. It's an excellent time to get in touch with what's been brewing beneath the surface. A secret may be revealed."

For me, I've had this overwhelming desire to be alone for weeks or even months, not just now.

Farm chores are *way* behind, but I just mosey along. It takes me all day to get about 2-3 hours worth of work done. I barely get the minimum done and maybe one extra small chore. I think part of it is because it's 24x7x365. I need to get off the farm routine for a couple weeks and can't really until I sell this place or win the lottery. So it's like I'm drowning in slow motion. Something happens, I raise my head in hope. And then it dissipates and I'm drowning again. Psychological waterboarding?

Nothing is coming to light from deep within. I meditate most nights before sleep and most mornings first thing, hoping for some direction and motivation. Nothing comes to me. Nothing is revealed. My trust has been so destroyed in the past 9 years that I find it hard to move forward, to believe in anything. The revelation about school this January was a final straw. I've lost all interest in the MLT program now. I want to move on, but there is nothing to move on to. There is little left that I want to do...

[I Have A Dream]

28. I'm praying that the Universe helps you, northernlights.

I ask it via grace.

:hug:

[OneGrassRoot]

30. I join you in that prayer....

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{northernlights}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}


:grouphug:

[FirstLight]

29. I'm gonna post before reading everyone else's, be objective....

here goes:
So...when I look at this week, I *do* feel the conflicting energies and the portal effect. Full Moon being only a piece of the puzzle, also a slowdown and speedup of perception vs reality? a conflict between what is physical and really spiritual in nature...the body is moving what the spirit begins ...

Like when I do moring meditation/running energy, I can feel really at peace and settled, and "break-up" what doesn't gell with my holding of a higher vibe - but the the body gets really heavy and works the rest of the stuff I "unblocked" during the rest of the day.
So quite a rollercoaster of feeling really at peace and yet watching the chaos unfold around and within, yet still being in some semblance of "control", because the peace is still there ...watching and holding...urging and helping...

not as much sorrow either, perhaps the feeling of spring is coming through? (though the snow on the ground refuses to melt ANY faster!!!! ) :grr: :rofl:

[OneGrassRoot]

32. May spring rise up to greet you....

and may you stay in the peaceful center of the chaos. :)

[northernlights]

34. thank you IHAD and 1grass -- working already

After a very deep and restful sleep last night, I woke from a dream that I was in a dormitory at a school in Oregon and ran into someone from this board -- I have no idea who! There was a warm surprise that we had been residing in the same building all along and I could just feel the peace emanating from within her spirit :D

I think this particular full moon is impacting me heavily since both my ascendant and my moon reside in Virgo. But I'm feeling back on center this morning.

[Myrina]

35. Really, really, really bad day today.

:( I am at my wit's end.