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But my husband was not a person that could be ignored. He was very tall and very strong but that is not what drew people to him (and he did draw people). I told him several times he missed his calling, he should have been a Dr, or a Preacher or Counselor. Complete strangers would come up to him and pour out their life stories and problems to him. He's been gone three years now and people still stop me when I'm out to talk to me about my husband. Recently a gentleman I never met recognized my son while we were out shopping, he wanted to tell me that he knew my husband and that he was a "good one." I didn't take it as a slight, I knew that he didn't mean he was a "good black man". I knew he he just meant that he was a good man.
Sometimes I think we can be hypersensitive to what we've been taught to expect from a society as people who have found love outside of our own ethnicities. I know I have. I would even go so far as to conduct little social experiments. I remember one time, I had bought my husband a rather expensive coat. He needed to take it back to be repaired but we didn't have the receipt. He took the coat in, he was dressed in jeans tee shirt and ball cap and the clerk wouldn't give him the time of day. He came home complaining to me about it. My advice to him was, put on your suit and tie, take the ball cap off your head and go back. They took the coat back and gave him a new one and he had just wanted the zipper repaired in the lining. Another time, he practically dragged me out of a store when I confronted a clerk that had asked him for ID when using his credit card, when she had not asked the white person in front of us. His reaction to that incident had me asking other questions about his life experience and whether he had been programmed to accept those injustices or if he was just a more tolerant person than me. I still haven't decided to this day if I was wrong for calling that clerk out.
We're lucky in a lot of ways, my son and I have good friends and neighbors. We live in a community that is diverse has people across the full spectrum of ethnicities. These days, I try to spend my time raising my son to be a good human being. He's not deprived of anything.. he's not angry. We talk often about how horrible people can be to one another and why people have to categorize themselves and create divisions between races. We talk about how afraid people are of others that appear different. We talk about fear and how if we let it, it can control our lives. It turns us ugly and we say and do hurtful things. It's a human thing, so we have to be careful. I remember my husband's Aunt Clara, she used to say "baby, you gotta feed em with a long handled spoon," it was in reference to placing to much trust in others. He's a smart kid, he has his fathers charm. I'm confident he'll grow to be come a "good one" too.
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