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I had my own music ministry... I traveled from church to church... I was invited to come sing all over California... Churches, schools, prisons, orphanages, etc. I took rock and roll tunes and put my own words to them, and I even recorded an album of original music written by my choir director. Then one day I was singing at a big gathering in my home town. Many choirs and singers from all over gathered. I was sitting in the audience waiting my turn and listening to the others, when I overheard one of my own church elders saying, "that rock beat comes straight from the depths of hell!" I had quite the conversation with him and my pastor... mainly along the lines of how I felt Lord led to do what I was doing and who were they to question the mysterious ways of the Lord, and that my music is getting attention with young people and many are coming to hear my music, and staying to hear the sermons. What could be wrong or evil with that? I asked hard questions. Questions based on scripture that they themselves taught me. They didn't like it too well, and I didn't like the way they condescended. Well, it wasn't but about six months later that the pastor had an affair with a married female member of the congregation, and in hearing of his transgressions, his wife tried to kill herself.
I figured that was a sign. I was out of there. I've since read many books on many religions and I still consider myself a seeker of truth, but I've been very unwilling to link myself with another Christian church. Every time I have gone to one since the awful ending noted above, I've been ultra sensitive to hypocrisy. And I haven't found one so-called Christian church thus far that is devoid of the same.
I know on a deep level, I have strong beliefs about God. But I consider myself a spiritual person, not a religious person. I am glad I had the experiences, and I'm glad I came to know scripture. Unfortunately, I use it more now to point out hypocrisy than anything.
Still, I believe in peace and love!
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