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Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:41 PM

It's time to tell my story

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This Epstein case has triggered many women like me. You see, I was a sex slave at least that was what I was being groomed for from age 11 to age 16 1979-1984. I've tried to write a book about this, even switching genres` to fiction, to self help, as a novel and on and on...the thing is, I get too emotional. Maybe I'm not done, maybe it's not the right time...who knows?

I first met the man who would later kidnap me at age 11. He was the first person, male or female to talk to me, let alone talk to me like an adult (because isn't that what all young girls want, to be spoken to and asked questions about their thoughts, ideas, and observations?) My mother was friends with his wife, she took me with her to their house and left me in the living room with him while they talked in the kitchen. I didn't know at that age that it was inappropriate for a man to hold the attention of a young girl the way he did with me, sending me flowers, seeking me out whenever his wife and mom were doing things together. The way he touched me. Kissing me...etc. That was at 11.

Touching became more and more inappropriate the older I got. When it finally came to a head (with sexual abuse) I was 14 and walking home from school, and stopping by their house, because, I did. His wife was gone (out of town) and he had a friend. They locked the doors and asked me if they could take 'pictures' of me...okay, I said. These men were just a few years younger than my own father. They kept me locked up in that house for the rest of that day and into the next. I finally got out and ran home. I couldn't tell my parents (because what do you say??? they were their friends!!) I kept silent, he kept abusing me until the day that my own mother gave me to him.

I'll call him 'Bob' You see, in the small town in Nevada, his family was a wealthy one, where as my family was not. While living with him, he gave me LSD because he wanted to see what a human could achieve if they used their whole brain. I was his test subject. he bathed me, dressed me, kept in a state of of perpetual psychosis. Never really knowing what was real and what was fake. Threatening me with death of family and myself. He kept giving me more and more drugs, LSD, heroin, cocaine, showing me how to ask for water, food, clothing. ( had to trade sexual favors for those luxuries to his friends, family, and men that paid.

When I was 16, just before my 17th birthday, he took me out of state, to a friend of his and kept me in a cage, in the basement. The abuse got worse, of course, I would be left alone for days at a time, no water let alone food, I can't tell you what I drank to survive, I think you get the jest of it though.

One time, just before I was rescued, I overheard him on the phone looking to sale me. At the time I remember being curious of how much I was worth. Bob, would go back to our little town and put the charm on the patrons of that town, because, he didn't look like the type to do what he was doing! He got busted for drugs though when they looked through his house, they saw the shackles, the photo albums, the clothing...etc. And they arrested him...sooo....

When I was rescued, I weighed 89 lbs. and wore children clothing. The person that rescued me, was a civilian, who got wind of Bob trying to sale (a girl) and he came up and convinced Bob that he could make me the best I would get the most money. He took me to Bob's now ex wife (the friend of my mothers) and while there, a detective came and arrested me for being a 'run away' and as he was questioning me (no parents, no advocate, nobody) he pulled out the photo albums and made derogatory comments about my body, hair, face, clothing. I blamed myself, I couldn't come up with a reason why Bob would do what he did to me, I was a very naive 16 yr. old. I suppose.

The state dropped the charges against Bob, but, threw me in jail.

I had nowhere to go, my parents truly believed I was a runaway, they didn't want me so, Bob's ex wife took me in. She told me that the reason she divorced Bob was because she was pregnant and they didn't't know if it was going to be a boy or a girl, bob wanted a girl, because as what he thought was his right, he must be the one to take her virginity. Se, she divorced him and ran away, which is when he took me. She felt at fault.

Children are resilient, I guess at least until they get older. At 17 Was out on a date at the Drive Inn, my mother and little brother in the lane next to us, when Bob came up to my date's window and started hitting him. the minute I heard his voice, I froze...and sang this certain song that he always sang to me when he would bathe me or rape me. I didn't even know until years later that my mother jumped out of her car and started hitting bob over the head with a rock...I just sat there singing like a lunatic! Oh well...

I ended up getting my life on track, got married to a wonderful man. had a daughter and had a blast raising her, teaching her things I never knew!

At 47, I stood up...that's the only way I can describe it, like a hen sitting on all her hatching eggs, I stood up, then all the regressed emotions, anger came out. Bob's son found me and asked if he could live with me (my daughter was away at school husband gone) and I let him. his mom had died and his dad (Bob) was very sick. With one condition he could not drink. he broke that within the first month and proceeded to tell me something his father made me do whenever I was in his presence, "You will sit in lotus position, nude, while in my presence." I never felt such anger. I kicked him out. I think Bob jr. came into my life so I would be one of the first people to know that Bob had died.

Within a month of Bob Jr. leaving, his dad Bob, died, he died drunk, alone, broke, and from MRSA. which is a very painful way to go. I think now, that I was finally given justice for what happened.

This was just one story ( a quick one at that) of one man in that whole web of men out there doing it. police officers visited me, while I was a sex slave, and prominent members of that small town. My life was threatened and I believed they would have done it too. I rarely talked about what happened, during those 30 yrs. I believed him all of them when they threatened.

But, after his death...oh my!!! I have told anyone who wanted to listen!! (and some who didn't !!!)

And since I found out about Epstein, the thought tickling my brain is...'what if, Bob had sold me???" "What if he was waiting for some old, rich, white dude to buy me???" I am ever so blessed that I was rescued!

I'm sorry, to tell this like this, but, man oh man, have I got PTSD with that fucking Epstein! I am so angry, I feel like I could send fire out from my fingertips!!!

Ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:49 PM

1. I am so sorry this happened to you. I have come to know that this happens more frequently than

I am so sorry this happened to you. I have come to know that this happens more frequently than we ever knew. And the coverups have gone on forever. I'm ready to rip down all the coverup curtains.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:53 PM

2. Horrendous

I am so sorry you were treated this way. I am sorry that the mere existence of these scum bags causes you pain.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:53 PM

3. The state dropped the charges against Bob, but, threw me in jail.


I had a 30 yr old friend who was kidnapped off the street for a few days but was able to get away and that was very traumatic . I can not begin to imagine your length of slavery and at a young age
Keep talking !!!
This is the DU member formerly known as lunasun.

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Response to lunasun (Reply #3)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:05 PM

7. At 49

Two years ago, I went to that small town courthouse in search of a police record of that time, it's gone, no record, nothing except for the fight that happened at the drive inn. I started shaking and couldn't help the tears and shaking voice as I asked her to do a deeper look. I thought to myself, "did it really happen??" Then just as I was leaving the building, this little old lady, says, "Yes, I remember you! I remember it"!! the tears of relief came my husband cried too!

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:56 PM

4. You are one tough and strong woman - know that. I am glad you are getting it out and talking

 

about it. This shit is happening every day in every corner of the globe in every walk of life.

Thank you for sharing...it's quite brave.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 05:59 PM

5. I'm so sorry this happened to you.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:02 PM

6. Oh holy hell, sage.

You have honored us with your story.

So glad you are here.

THANK YOU



RESPECT

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:11 PM

8. My heart goes out to you and I'm glad that you are here to share your story. nt

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:12 PM

9. You're braver than anyone I know.

And I know that you know your recovery will take a lifetime. I was raped by a pedophile when I was six and though I have done the important healing a long time ago, itís still a process.

DU has been a lifeline to sanity for me because there are many of us here who have been raped. Your case is one of the worst and itís amazing that youíve come so far. Your daughter was a blessing. Our children truly do heal us in so many ways.

I wonder if you might start a healing group for people who have experienced what you did. Sexual slavery. I must admit that Iím really worried about all children who are kidnapped into sexual slavery. The thought that they might go through life unable to heal is one of the saddest things there is.

Please accept a big, loving hug from me.

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Response to lunatica (Reply #9)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:46 PM

13. Aho sister friend!

I am sorry for you...at least I had a young childhood, yours, it seems, was ripped out from under you.

In Reno (not my small town) I would volunteer at a halfway house for survivors of six trafficking. There are so many, many children and young adults that are still in that abusive cycle.

I try to have faith that it will stop, but, that is a fight I battle everyday, I don't have much faith in humanity.

I would be willing to help with a group like that. My method of healing was not so mainstream, but, I can help others, I think...???

sage

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Response to sagetea (Reply #13)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:28 PM

26. I hope you do help others.

Maybe by asking people you know if they would like to have a weekly or biweekly meeting just to talk. People would trust a group of people they knew had experienced the same thing. Trust is a big hurtle and only someone with the same experience could be trusted. Then the group might grow reaching more people.

It would just be a place to talk. The whole subject is wrapped in silence. You hear about it happening but you rarely, if ever, meet any victims that you know of. The reason must be that they donít want to talk about it. Hell! It would probably take a book to explain this very thing. I know that I didnít tell anyone outside telling my family when I was in my early 40s, until someone opened up here on DU. It helped a lot even after so many years. Itís the reason I told you because itís very important for everyone to know they arenít alone.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:15 PM

10. Oh my God! I am so sorry!

How incredibly awful! I am glad you got away from him sage!

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:42 PM

11. So much evil that we couldn't have imagined is now coming out. That's good, but we live

In a state of shock. Sage, you must be incredibly strong to have survived all you did. Thank goodness for his ex-wife when you needed her. I sure hope the fates reward you with peace from now on!❤

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:45 PM

12. Thank You For Sharing Your Story-It Can't Have Been Easy

I am so sorry for what you endured. No one should ever have to be so badly exploited and mistreated. I wish every good thing for you, especially peace.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:48 PM

14. Thank-you for sharing your story

You are a survivor. You are a person, not a toy doll, not a worthless thing for some guy's sadistic play time. You are a valuable person with a family, who loves and appreciates you, as do I and everyone else here on DU. You are free to shape the rest of your life for the benefits of your family, friends, and anyone else, whom you choose to grace with your presence.

May you enjoy profound brilliant glory.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:55 PM

15. I admire your resilience, your ability to go into the world and make a life for you and your family.

Your bravery, your open heart, and your ability to love are remarkable.

Thank you for sharing with us, sagetea.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:56 PM

16. Oh no Sage

How awful that must have been for you. I am glad you are telling your story because too many of us believe in the myth of the happy American family. The fact that Epstein was allowed to do this for so many years tells us how far we have to go.
Peace to you Sage.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 06:59 PM

17. I salute you for your courage and resilience. It took a lot of strength to share your story.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 07:12 PM

18. Thank you for sharing

And trusting us with your story. Oh god. I am so very sorry that happened to you.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 07:13 PM

19. I am so sorry this happened to you

and so happy you are doing so much better. Thank you for sharing. Sharing stories like this help so many to understand.

I can't imagine what this is like for you with Epstein being in the news and Trump being the creep he is. May your anger get you through the still tough times and love get you into the rest. ((hugs))

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 07:28 PM

20. Thank you and blessings be with you, dear sage

My virtual arms are around you ... such a brave and true human ...

I hope your healing continues and your world is filled with joy ...

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 07:50 PM

21. Thank you for telling your story.

People need to hear them. I'm glad you were able to.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:14 PM

22. You survived!

Iím proud of you. You are brave to tell your story 😽

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:16 PM

23. Sage, I have no words. I am glad you "awakened" at 47.

As you said, children are resilient. Itís later that we go through the story and the emotions that we couldnít understand when we were young.

🙏🏾❤️

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:17 PM

24. Wow....

That's a horrible, horrible story.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:26 PM

25. You are amazing.

Your survival and sanity are amazing!

Find some trusted person to help you write that book. The process could help further your amazing healing. People need to realize that some "upstanding" men in our communities are a farce, that they are predators. I had to endure something quite insignificant in comparison: the advances of a minister. A minister!! A position of power & "respect." Fortunately I was my early 20's, so I knew how to rebuff him w/o losing my position. This was just the 1st of many male bosses with a similar m.o.

I cannot imagine the pain you have felt as a child and as a young person. I'm so very sorry.

Sending you my respect, admiration, praise, and a big I think everyone here sends theirs

And thank you for your bravery in sharing here. 🙏

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Response to Duppers (Reply #25)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:21 AM

40. I don't know how to find someone...

to help write the book...or books. With all the bad, there was some incredible good, though.

I wonder, if the women, and there are still women who are in slavery, if they get out what and who will take care of them? I was very fortunate to have friends and family that lived away from normal society, meaning Native Americans who took it upon themselves to help me heal and understand and I got to go crazy with pain and anger. But, if all the women (and men) were found and released from their chains and shackles, what will happen to them?

I was in it for a very short time, considering some in for life. But, I was still young enough to have some resemblance of a normal life. Even now, I don't have 'normal' thoughts and actions. I pretend to, because I want my daughter to, but, mostly I fake it. I am not educated and everywhere I go, I look for an escape route. I won't go into a building unless I can find another way out.

Really don't know what would have happened if someone I trusted, a spiritual leader, had taken and betrayed trust like that. We are all victors, we are all being victimized with what is happening right now and the light being shown, we are being emotionally raped and shackled to a 'man' who is supposed to lead us, to protect us, and we're simply not.

For women like me and you and others here, we are being forced day after day of reliving our most painful and degrading moments of our lives, without our consent too!

WE ARE VICTORS!

If you have any ideas on how to contact someone to help with writing my story, please DM me and let me know!

AHO`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:32 PM

27. i will never ever compain of any hardship again...

...if I could send you a standing ovation, I would! (((hugs)))

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:37 PM

28. OMG! My sympathies to you to have to have endured this.

You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are courageous in my book.
Have you contacted anyone to promote you story? I think it would help others realize that all hope is not lost.
But it is your story and staying anonymous is your right and privilege.

Peace to you and your family.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:39 PM

29. A survivor and a tough Nevada woman.


Your story of "standing up" makes me proud to have grown up in one of those small Nevada towns--and horrified about the awful secrets lurking around. Thanks for telling your story.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:41 PM

30. I am so sorry this happened to you Sage.

You are so strong and by sharing your story you are helping people. I wish I knew some magical words to make it all better.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:42 PM

31. It would be a good idea for you to seek counseling

You aren't crazy, but you've suffered a lot of pain for a long time, and there was nobody in your family to help you get through it. Every woman who endures rape or sexual assault should seek counseling, and you've been subjected to so much more!

Have you ever gone to a women's center or a rape crisis center to get counseling? It's usually available for no charge if you live in an area that supports this service. Perhaps even a Planned Parenthood center might have a counselor who can help a woman who has been sexually assaulted/abused.

Good luck to you dear, you deserve to be happy and healthy.

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Response to FakeNoose (Reply #31)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 09:05 PM

34. you're right...

I could use some more therapy. My story did not stop there. Through my 20's I lived on a reservation and healed through my spirituality. I believe, I hit menopause which is why everything came flooding out. I did do some therapy at the University my daughter went to, but, only for a few months at 49.

It's all good, just PTSD now.

Thank you!

sage

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Response to FakeNoose (Reply #31)

Wed Sep 23, 2020, 10:50 PM

53. I feel that I needed to tell you

It's been a year since I wrote this, here, the very first time telling somebody. But you, this message, encouraged me to seek therapy...(also my daughter).

Not long after this was written, I started seeing somebody, I still am, she helped me quiet the noise in my head so I could hear, does that make sense?

I don't know, but, thank you.

It seems with all that is happening we forget our manners and I so wanted to tell you Thank You!

Ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Reply #53)

Thu Sep 24, 2020, 08:01 AM

55. Oh my, this is wonderful news

Prayers and good wishes for you and your daughter.

Thanks for letting me know, but more importantly, thanks for making the effort to save yourself and your daughter.


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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 08:48 PM

32. Never, never, never say you're sorry for telling your story when you are so brave to do so

Thank you for trusting us and telling us your story.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 09:01 PM

33. You are amazing.

Thank you for sharing your story. You are a powerful survivor.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 09:34 PM

35. Please write that book

In just a few minutes of reading, your story has filled me with anger, sorrow, tears and hope.


Bob is the one who turned your life upside down. You brought it back to as close to what it should have been as you can.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 10:13 PM

36. How can words encompass something like this...

Your story leaves me reeling. I am often ashamed to be a man these days. Iím glad Bob died drunk and in pain. He deserved worse.

They dropped the charges and arrested you? Who and what are these people? Are they people at all?

Thank you for sharing this. I hope you can watch Epstein take his fall and take down so many more with him. And that that brings you some comfort.
This is the DU member formerly known as Moral Compass.

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Response to Moral Compass (Reply #36)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:32 AM

42. In Nevada...

In small towns in Nevada, there are "The good ol' boy network" Bob, was the son of a very old Nevada family. with money comes power in those small towns. I'm sure that's everywhere, but I have not been to many anywhere's so I can only speak of my experience.

I hope Epstein and tRump go down, I hope so, but, I don't have faith in our justice system, because of my own experience, so, I just wait and see and send love and blessings to the women who have come forward and the women and men who haven't.

They arrested me for being a 'runaway' which is an excuse they do to young women in those situations because nobody wants them, we have a 'taint' around us.

ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Wed Jul 31, 2019, 10:22 PM

37. Sage, you are a wonderment

No one should have to go thru what you did, at the hands of this monster, and by the legal system. You are a strong person, and a hero to other victims.

I am so glad you found peace and joy in your life.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 09:31 AM

38. That's awful

What a horrible town!

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 10:42 AM

39. I, as a man, am in awe of you

I just muddle through life and often am confused by my nearly 11 year old daughter and her ever changing body and moods. Can't even imagine her going through what you did. You are one of the strongest people ever. I salute you. It must have been painful for you to tell your story but it's good you married a good man and raised a fine family.
Reading your story made me sad and enraged at the same time. See, I am very protective of my daughter and once threatened to tear off a trumpites head because he messed with my daughter. Dont neccesarily like violence but one does what one has to. Very happy that you survived and told your tale. It must take a lot of courage. Let's hope Bob is rotting in hell.

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Response to JPPaverage (Reply #39)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:36 AM

44. Welcome to DU!!

I'm very happy I survived too!!

Don't know what I think about Heaven or Hell, but, I do believe if it exists it is formed from how you are remembered with the living. I think he is in hell because he wasn't a good person and I don't know too many people that think he was a good person, so, for me that is his hell.


ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:29 AM

41. You are amazing! I'm willing to bet a lot of us have had tough weeks here.

I'm so sorry you went through that hell. No on deserves that. I know you are not alone.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:35 AM

43. I'm aghast, reading what was done to you, sagetea.

Iím glad you survived to tell the tale and find your way toward a better, more stable life.

It took great courage to reveal this pain.

SO glad you survived.

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Response to calimary (Reply #43)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:40 AM

46. Thank you calimary!

I have revealed here and there on DU some of it on some posts, but, this is the first time speaking about it so publicly! my hands are shaking and my throat is clogged! not sure it's it's courage or worry that someone from my old hometown has read this and wants to harm...but, it was time to say something even though my hands are shaking!!

ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:38 AM

45. There's a knee jerk reaction . . .

. . . in many people who hear stories like this: This can't be happening. The teller must be psychotic. Nothing like this can happen.

So important for these stories be told. So important that this is stopped. If there's one such story, there are probably thousands.

Thank you for your courage.

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Response to Richard D (Reply #45)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 11:45 AM

47. yes, there is.

Which is why people like me don't talk about it very much and certainly not so publicly! When sitting at the deceive's desk on that Sunday afternoon in 1984, when I blamed myself, I pretty much set the stage for people to doubt me. I don't care at this point, Bob, managed to keep me in fear for 30+ yrs. of my life, I owe it to other survivors to continue to stand. No matter who does or doesn't believe. There is so much more to the story and I only gave a little bit of it, enough for people to understand.

Thank you.

ho`

sage

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 12:38 PM

48. I admire your bravery

Your story is tremendously powerful and I believe it took great courage for you to share it so unsparingly.

Your recovery is an equally intense tale and your strength of survival is inspiring and admirable.

I hope your life from now on will be peaceful and full of success!

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 12:46 PM

49. OMG sagetea, I am in awe of your courage to tell this.

I am so sorry this happened to you. Cannot imagine how you feel right now. Peace to you.

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Response to AllyCat (Reply #49)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 05:22 PM

50. How terrible for you!

Breaks my heart to think you suffered so much.

Just finished the book Filthy Rich by James Patterson and it told the life of Jeffrey Epstein and how he was allowed out of jail to actually do the same thing he was arrested for.

I am glad you lived to see the death of your torturer. And bless you for speaking out. We need those monsters not jailed, but buried. And I hope his enablers pay, too.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 06:09 PM

51. I don't tell my story here on DU.

Not all off it.


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Response to hunter (Reply #51)

Wed Sep 23, 2020, 11:06 PM

54. It's been just over a year...

and for some reason, I saw this pinned to my page, I can't believe I told some of my story...out loud...in public!

But, I'll tell you what. The freedom and strength I felt after I spoke, typed my story, I never felt before. I'm a strong person, but the strength from telling it to a crowd of strangers, I can't even explain it, honestly! Telling it has given me courage.

I hope you tell your story.

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Response to sagetea (Original post)

Thu Aug 1, 2019, 07:59 PM

52. My heart is breaking for you, sagetea.

It broke several times while I read this. That monster. His enablers. So many people willing to ruin an innocent life. But, in the end, you showed strength by surviving, and being a wonderful parent, and living a good life.

That's the best revenge.

*hugest hugs I can muster*

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