I say that people would never believe because I lived it and I have a hard time believing it myself. It simply seems impossible that things like this could happen in this country, right under people's noses, and they would have no idea what the smiling charismatic fanatic is capable of. And more, you simply cannot explain to someone who has never experienced it for themselves just how horrific seemingly minor things can become if horror is the goal and the victim starts from a position of powerless despair.
For example, I was in that place for about three months and had apparently successfully completed their initial indoctrination program before I was transferred out of their windowless intake facility to a regular unit. I wont go into how they did their indoctrination here now, but suffice it to say that it was very effective at BREAKING people. Absolute power and control makes this very easy. None the less, I was only out of that intake unit for about a week before I was snatched up and hauled down to their disciplinary detention unit. I did not know what I had done, and it turns out that they didn't either. That was irrelevant, it was just arbitrary evil and violence for the sake of violence.
Understand that I was scared, though terror is perhaps the better word. They sat me down in a chair facing a wall, handed me a pad and pencil, and told me to write what I had done. I didn't know what they wanted to read though, so I made something up. After an hour or so the guards came and took the paper, yelled at me for lying, tore it up and ordered me to begin again. This was repeated over and over and over again. They told me that they already knew what I had done, my friends had already ratted me out, but I needed to confess. They worked in shifts, I stayed in the chair facing the wall. They let me get up a few times a day to go to the bathroom, but other than that I was in that chair confessing away to increasingly insane shit. I confessed to plotting to blow up the place, I confessed to worshipping Satan, I confessed to sexual thoughts.
I was in that chair for three days without sleep and very little food. They did the good cop bad cop thing, and even though I KNEW it was bullshit it still worked. When you are a kid and you know that the people who are holding you prisoner can literally do ANYTHING to you, and you haven't slept and you are scared shitless and giant adults are standing behind you where you cannot see them raging at you, hitting you if you start to nod off, hitting you if you don't confess... the guy who comes up and says nice things, who says he wants to help you, but he doesn't know how much longer he can keep these other guys in check, you know it's bullshit but you LOVE that guy anyway. You want to believe.
Eventually they let me go from that chair. I don't know what they ultimately decided I had done, what the crime supposedly was, but really there was only the ONE crime that applied to everything. Bad thoughts. That was the crime, what constituted the crime and the penalty were all deliberately random. In a totalitarian system the purpose of power is not control or obedience, these are side effects of terror. The purpose of power is power, the goal of evil is evil, they cause pain to cause pain.
I was sentenced to stand at the wall. That was their everyday normal punishment, but it was as much as anything just something to make kids do. Doesn't sound that bad right? Standing involved just that. You stood in a little room, shoulder to shoulder with other boys, facing a wall from six inches away, for 55 minutes per hour with a five minute break. All day. If you shifted too much or touched the wall or collapsed the hour didn't count.
I spent the next SIX MONTHS staring at that wall while the carnage raged around me.
And I was one of the lucky ones. They had a whole lot more to do to me. I experienced some serious shit myself, I got beat and tortured and all that, but they never used the chemicals on me. My therapist, who I saw every few months, told me that they wanted to but he was refusing to sign off on it -- but that might have been bullshit too. The drugs were the final ultimate terror, because we could all see what they did and it was absolutely fucking demonic. Even the fear that they would take you into one of the isolation rooms and just beat you to death paled in comparison.
But anyway, I imagine that most people reading this stuff do not believe it. I don't blame them. And in any case it's a serious bummer to even think about so I will shut up about it and post this without proof reading.
Peace
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I'm just so so sorry his happened to you! 
I have another thought in mind......
