What do you wish you could do that you currently cannot? I'm on meds

[applegrove]

for ptsd. I have not been able to cry for 12 years (maybe I managed to twice). Though I don't want to deal with fear so I'm happy I am on this particular kind of drug, I wish I would enjoy drama on dvd or even cry at a funeral. I suppose I should just be happy they invented really great drugs in my lifetime. But dam I wish I could pick and choose the emotions that are blunted.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. My dear applegrove...

I wish I could have the full use of my arms. I have spurs in both shoulders and I cannot reach over my head. Plus they hurt.

I've made some changes in my lifestyle so I can cope, but I remember the days when my range of motion and comfort were normal.

I'm sorry you're dealing with PTSD. That has to suck.

[Downwinder]

2. Walk properly or maybe even run or skip a little.

But I am thankful just to be able to shamble around, couldn't do that 10 years ago.

[freshwest]

22. +1

[Honeycombe8]

3. Where do I start? Retire. Run (my lungs aren't good from 30 years of smoking, but I quit yrs ago).

I can run a bit but not far...I don't have the capacity, it seems.

Do crunches for abs...well, I can do them on one of those ex. balls or something soft, but if I do them on the floor or pad on floor, it hurts my back now.

Have a good memory. My memory was never great (except for work things), but it's slipping now.

[Kali]

4. get on a horse with just one rock

or my real dream, to get on from the ground again

currently i need a rock to get on a rock big enough for me to get on

[applegrove]

5. LOL!

[pinboy3niner]

6. LOL! What you need is a horse elevator

No, not one to elevate the horse, but to elevate you onto the horse. Check with Mitt RMoney--he may know some contractors.

When I was a kid, we'd pass by a fenced pasture with Shetlands on the way to the store in our suburban area. The horses would always come by the fence, so one day I decided to climb onto the fence and onto a pony. BIG MISTAKE!

Fuck'n pony took off like a rocket and worked like hell to scrape me off against the fence. Successfully, I might add. I don't know if I made 8 seconds (probably not), but it sure seemed like forever. So I didn't even need a horse elevator to get in trouble.

In those days it was a kick to have, at the end of my street, a horse ranch owned by Betty Grable and Harry James where they trained quarter horses for racing. Apart from the chain link fencing, it was surrounded by Eucalyptus trees and white corral fencing with beautiful horses inside. It was nice while it lasted...

[Kali]

8. those little bastids can be mean

first equine I ever fell off of was a Shetland pony (and I had been riding horses all my life up to that point - age 10 or 11)

[Archae]

7. Ride further on my bicycle.

I used to ride my bicycle all over town.

Nowadays, just riding home from downtown (5 miles) I run out of gas on the last couple hills and have to walk up.

[grantcart]

9. not feel my prostrate while sitting on a hard chair!!

[Locut0s]

10. Be able to live in the world. Life long depression / anxiety, house bound, no future :(

[applegrove]

11. You are here and DU will be here forever. Baby steps. One small goal after another.

[chknltl]

12. Picnic with my parants.

They loved to drive out to My Rainier and have picnics with their kids. I, being the eldest of those kids always thought this silly. My parents are both gone now. Man what I would not give to go back and have another picnic with them.

Btw, I am a Vet being treated for PTSD. The good doctors at the VA hospital have me on something called Valproic Acid. It sorta feels like being stoned on mild pot. In my case it 'takes the edge off' and makes life a bit more.... acceptable. OTOH I have discovered that there is truth behind the snarky description of 'being off ones meds'.

[Denninmi]

13. Be anyone other than myself.

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[HopeHoops]

14. Think. The oxcycone and lorazapam are still keeping in the "weird zone".

[turtlerescue1]

15. Boy that'ld be a very very long long LONG list.

Energy, wish this old body would have its "old" levels. Miss being "hyper" "squirrelly" and busy.

Wish I could do what nursing required before the back injury, took a decade to quit mentally trying to "grasp" that moment away.



applegrove, hang in there. I wish I wasn't so emotional, that even little things have tears streaming down my face- that includes chuch services! Flags in a parade. Groan!!

[Myrina]

16. Buy a plane ticket to Paris and spend several months just wandering the world ...

sigh.

[WhoIsNumberNone]

17. Take a vacation

Get out of debt.
Find a job that pays a living wage but doesn't involve selling my soul...

[femmocrat]

18. Run up and down the steps like I used to.

And eat whatever I want! LOL

And have a Bloody Mary...... Heck, I can't cry either, but now I am

[Tuesday Afternoon]

19. go back to school.

[IBEWVET]

20. A "lot" of things, I am about to turn 64 N/T

[hunter]

21. I'm not in a happy place with my meds at the moment...

...but I'm not quite a hermit living in a cardboard box, so it could be worse.