HomeLatest ThreadsGreatest ThreadsForums & GroupsMy SubscriptionsMy Posts
DU Home » Latest Threads » Forums & Groups » Topics » Health » Addiction & Recovery (Group) » Hard time today...

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 02:46 PM

Hard time today...

Sharing this in every reocvery forum I'm registered for. Gotta get it out there:

Sober over 12 years, but I've let my meetings and contacts slack over the last few months. We're supposed to go to a Halloween party tonight...and out of nowhere, I fantasized about stealing a bottle (BIG drinking household) and getting hammered. The force of it, the clarity in the way my brain was planning it, scared me badly. Making my excuses for the party and heading for a meeting instead.

11 replies, 2006 views

Reply to this thread

Back to top Alert abuse

Always highlight: 10 newest replies | Replies posted after I mark a forum
Replies to this discussion thread
Arrow 11 replies Author Time Post
Reply Hard time today... (Original post)
TommyCelt Oct 2013 OP
MindMover Oct 2013 #1
Sanddog42 Oct 2013 #2
NMDemDist2 Oct 2013 #3
Old Codger Oct 2013 #4
tavalon Oct 2013 #6
Old Codger Oct 2013 #9
tavalon Oct 2013 #10
tavalon Oct 2013 #5
TommyCelt Oct 2013 #7
TygrBright Oct 2013 #8
Andy823 Oct 2013 #11

Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 03:04 PM

1. Just the way you described your fantasies reminds me of

some of my own ... I will only warn that the process of getting to hammered is really painful to both mind and body ... I know that your personal mental gymnastics is difficult at this time ... and I want to commend you for your decision to head to a supportive meeting ... you should be thanking yourself for your reflective thoughts instead of acting on your impulsive behaviors .... I am personally thanking you for your constructive positive behaviors and I want to encourage you to continue to remind yourself of the destructive consequences of hammering yourself ....

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 06:04 PM

2. I know this is cliche, but...

You never have to drink again, even if you want to.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 06:24 PM

3. you're doing the right thing

and when my crazybrain starts talking i ask 'what have i stopped doing that i was doing when it worked?'

but you've already figured that. grab a newcomer at the meeting and take them to coffee.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 08:59 PM

4. Solid Proof

 

That regardless of anything else your program is working, good for you to do what you need to do not what you want to do..

Might take a hard look at the process that got you to the point of thinking about going out.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to Old Codger (Reply #4)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 10:53 PM

6. Sure, there's that, but if he did what he said he did

He begged off the party and went to meeting. That's some solid work right there!

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to tavalon (Reply #6)

Sun Oct 20, 2013, 09:50 AM

9. It is for sure

 

It was very definitely the right move and deserves credit for recognizing what was happening and taking the necessary steps.. As time moves on needs to keep on top of the problem that caused the thinking also..

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to Old Codger (Reply #9)

Sun Oct 20, 2013, 02:17 PM

10. Always, always

There are times I wish there were a magic fairy who could take this all away. But then I think of the person I might be and I prefer this person, even with the difficulties.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 10:52 PM

5. I don't have your disease but I have an addictive personality

and boy, those fantasies are like ripping off a scab.

Huge congrats on your choice to head to a meeting. I know they say it's one day at a time, but really, it's one choice at a time and this time you made the right choice. I wish I could promise it gets better and in some ways, I think you know it does, but still these things can knock the wind out, can't they?

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Original post)

Sat Oct 19, 2013, 11:10 PM

7. Thanks everyone...

For the words of support and encouragement.

Got to the meeting, and heard what I needed to hear. Still dealing with the force and fallout of the averted drinking plan. As suggested, I need to get back to the program a bit, and work it more closely. Get a sponsor again, and do some 11th step work to give back. Forgetting where I came from and can go again is simply not an option for me.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TommyCelt (Reply #7)

Sun Oct 20, 2013, 02:32 AM

8. I've heard tell as how there's them that can get "fixed" and not need to work at it anymore.

Never met one, though.

"One day at a time" never stops.

If I forget it, it's down the rabbit hole for me.

I learn this the hard way, again and again.

Me and my jerkbrain.

affirmatively,
Bright

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink


Response to TygrBright (Reply #8)

Thu Oct 31, 2013, 08:40 PM

11. Some may think they are fixed

But in my 28 years of fighting the addictions, I have found that we all are just one drink away from going back to where we were, and for me that just isn't an option I want to take. I have gotten to where I am today by doing exactly what you said, taking it one day at a time. There have been many times when something has come up that makes me think just "one drink" would fix my problems, but then I remember that I could never have just one drink, and I simply need to make it through the day and then on to the next. Things do get better, but we have to keep make the right choices.

Reply to this post

Back to top Alert abuse Link here Permalink

Reply to this thread