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kozar

(2,221 posts)
Thu Oct 1, 2020, 09:30 PM Oct 2020

some great crisis, avoided

Ive been quiet,, its been ,not so easy. I have been chomping at the bit to have a drink. reading this thread has saved me.

Oh this isn't political, but, maybe it is too. I watch/read all your strength. Well, as you may know, Mrs K, LilBit and I moved a couple months ago. Whelp..we changed banking info when we made final,, low and behold, the banks F'd up.. none of our monthly retirement checks hit our new account last month. WE went through Sept on 900 bucks. God, these last 2 weeks sucked. I wanted some rum each night, I listened to LilBit (my daughter) whining, I knew she had enough to eat.I made my choice,LilBit got any cookie, tater chip or anything that cost same as rum that I could afford.
And then, if you read my posts, we found a kitty in our car. Another thing, we bought litter, and cat food. Not 1 thought that Isse wasn't in her home .

FINALLY Oct 1, our $ hit our new bank. WE were told our new bank had to lay off because economy. So reason is we didn't get our checks last month. Data center "couldn't keep up"

Mrs K and I were talking, did we lose faith? Nope. Did Koz find a way each morn he had to and make some kind of spaghetti dish to LAST 10 DAYS? YEP. Did Koz find a local farm that sells great ground beef and chickens at 1 third price of in store? Well,yeah, he did.

Ok gang,,I got a couple things going on with this post

,1. we can do this politically if we believe. These can be stressful times. we made some simple dry mashed taters and ate,,LilBit was Happy. That just explains yesterday.

2.Today,our stress ended, our checks were in new bank.. OMG I wanted to go buy some booze after stress of last couple weeks.
Welp , I woke today and felt different, nope ,I didn't need the rum/booze. I was taught by, whatever/whoever,,God, or what you believe.

My dollars were there, I could have bought booze, 2 weeks ago and today, but I didn't.

I'm far from perfect, but I learned, finally, the drink/shot isn't important. Your life is.My life is LilBit and Mrs K, even when we argue. Reach, Find, Know, your simple focus! Chances are, it is not your hook on the wall, with your fave sweatshirt, it is what is in your honest heart , will save You. Slow your brain down, Think ,Breathe, Believe.

Not all of you will have a point blank LilBit to save you, as I did ,, Just look for inside you you for a hidden LilBit. It is There.


FIND IT!

You guys saved, without my posts. This is my Thanks.

Koz


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some great crisis, avoided (Original Post) kozar Oct 2020 OP
... alwaysinasnit Oct 2020 #1
Im kinda happy kozar Oct 2020 #2
I am married to a recovering alcoholic. It truly is a rough ride. alwaysinasnit Oct 2020 #4
I do not have all the answers, kozar Oct 2020 #5
Blessings to you and your loved ones. And it's great to be part of this DU community. You too, are alwaysinasnit Oct 2020 #6
You did good and in doing so, taught a lesson or three. yonder Oct 2020 #3
Your stuff is always worth the read, Koz. Sounds like you're doing good. marble falls Oct 2020 #7

kozar

(2,221 posts)
5. I do not have all the answers,
Thu Oct 1, 2020, 09:54 PM
Oct 2020

I just shared me, I hope you know ,you are not alone. ON either side


Koz

alwaysinasnit

(5,099 posts)
6. Blessings to you and your loved ones. And it's great to be part of this DU community. You too, are
Thu Oct 1, 2020, 10:04 PM
Oct 2020

not alone.

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