I kind of feel like I'm enduring a hail storm of anxiety triggers, right now

[Siwsan]

The basement flooded at my Mom's house, where my niece and nephew are living and renovating. One plumbing company quoted something like $5,000+ to resolve the issue. Another came out and checked the floor drain, cleared it out and resolved the problem for less than $300. Now a water restoration company is taking care of things and the insurance guy is on top of it. Hopefully it will all be covered.

More shenanigans from my health care provider notifying me of a referral for SOMETHING. I have no idea what since I haven't seen her until the end of the month. Today, maybe tomorrow, I'll call the place and find out wtf is going on. I'm way too over the edge to do that right now. I've got to find somebody new who knows how to deal with someone as anxiety ridden as me.

One of the feral kittens didn't show up for breakfast and it's my favorite little guy, Dewi. I will be spending lots of time looking around for him and hope he's OK. Yesterday when I was mowing I found the remains of a long dead kitten of unknown origin. I gave it a proper burial and felt horrible.

And don't get me started on what watching the news is doing to me. So I stopped.

Yesterday afternoon and last night I took some anti anxiety medication. This morning I realized I had locked poor Arthur out on the screened in porch!! Fortunately there's water, a bed and a litter box but still, that makes me feel like a horrible hooman.

Top that all off with the fact I'm having to come to terms with being totally estranged from my late sister's husband, due to the nightmare of a partner he's hooked up with. Well, it's his former girlfriend and they secretly got back together within weeks of my sister's death. She's very disrespectful of the memory of my sister. VERY. She also forced him to disinvite my brother from a party because he doesn't bow down to her. Now my former BIL has let me know, in no uncertain terms, just how little my feelings matter to him and now I worry about the estrangement spreading. This one hurts.

Somehow I doubt this will be a very productive day. But I know - take DEEP breaths and focus to rediscover my center. I'm going to go look for Dewi. Again.

[Evergreen Emerald]

1. I am so sorry you are going through this.

[KarenS]

2. .....

Sending hugs to you,,,,,

[XanaDUer2]

3. As someone with bad anxiety

I get you

[WhiteTara]

4. you're enduring.

You'll be okay. Remember that everything is temporary and that we all die. That is the advice of my guru.

[hunter]

11. That's sort of how I survive, meds too, but it's probably not the best of all coping mechanisms.

[niyad]

5. Holding you in light and love. Your DU family is here for you. Lean as hard as

you need. That is one huge amount of stress.


huggggggggs.

[Dear_Prudence]

6. Grief

Your posts (and my 3 rescue cats) have supported me through some recent tough times. I am grieving a dear friend. Her angry son (in his 50s) yelled and called her names in hospice. I couldn't visit her due to surgery, just phone calls. (By phone, I did read the charge nurse the riot act as to her duty to protect my dying friend from elder abuse.) Since her death: no obit, no service, fb deleted, and her pre-paid grave next to her folks lies empty. So, I made my own ritual. I made a photo stand with craft foam and craft flowers and installed her photo on my mantle piece; it is her own little altar. I am so sorry about the loss of your sister and the rift in your family. I hope you can find some way to reduce your pain.

[Karadeniz]

7. Life's not fair !

[70sEraVet]

8. Televised news is DESIGNED to trigger anxiety!

My only news sources are DU, Theguardian.com, and an NPR station. Oh, and a local newspaper that only deal with news of our rural county.
Really, if you suffer from bouts of anxiety, avoid the news on tv. Maybe even take breaks from ALL news for short periods.

[wendyb-NC]

9. Oh that's a lot

I send you positive energy. I hope Dewi comes back soon, safe and hungry. You are in my thoughts, hope all this gets resolved with family and all. Hang tight, kiddo, take care of yourself and your precious kitty family. Peace.

[slightlv]

10. Purrs to finding Dewi quickly and safely.

You know he's probably just out playing with learning how to stalk prey, etc... but I know the feeling when one of the babies don't show up. You just don't rest until they're "home."

I'm sending you vibes of love, strength, and patience. I just took a couple of anti-anxiety meds myself about 30 minutes ago. We must be coming up on a dark moon... I always get antsy prior to those.

Keeping you in my thoughts as I try to work through my day around here. I'm going to try to clean my now designated computer room, and try to divide it between tech and a meditation area. My "kids" will be helping me... we'll spruce up Bast's table and add a few offerings in Dewi's name. Peace, Sister...

[3catwoman3]

12. Has Dewi re-appeared?

I sure hope so.

If I have missed a thread addressing this, I do apologize.

[Siwsan]

13. Unfortunately he hasn't.

He was fine Wednesday night. I'm just baffled.

I keep hoping he will surprise me.

[3catwoman3]

14. I hope so, too. You and he...

…have been on my mind all day.