i'm feeling a little hurt right now

[fizzgig]

my dad and sister flew out to new york without me yesterday. i know that, at 31, i can't expect my dad to pay my way on vacations now, but we've dropped about 500 bucks on our car over the past six weeks or so with more to come, so our disposable income has been zilch. which meant there was no money for me to even get a plane ticket. the worst part is is that they're actually getting into the city this time, an opportunity that has not been provided to me the last four times we've made the trek out there. it's one of the homes of my heart and it's been years since i've been able to see it.

i have more than just a bit of anger about this, because i know why my dad didn't have the money to take me. i'm feeling like a spoiled brat and that isn't helping the situation, either.

i'm crying crying and wanting to actually yell and scream at someone for the first time in several months. i'm mad about money, i'm mad about being left here and i'm mad that they're making the time to do something they never made the time for all the trips we've made previously. i thought i'd be ok with this, but was i ever wrong.

and there is no one to give me a hug.

[PoliticAverse]

1. ...

[fizzgig]

3. thank you

[CaliforniaPeggy]

2. Oh, my dear fizzgig...

That was wrong of him .......

I'm right there with ya, yelling at someone, anyone...

It's only virtual, but believe me if I were there I'd be cracking your ribs, sweetie.....

Do something nice for yourself, if you can...

[fizzgig]

4. thanks, peggy

i know some of this has to do with me being absolutely exhausted, my boss was out of the office this week, so i pulled a 50 hour week to do both our jobs. and the frustration at our financial situation. plus, i'm watching the house, so i'm sleeping away from my husband for a few nights, which always throws me off.

i'm not necessarily sure it's an issue of right and wrong, more that's just how it shook out this time. being an adult certainly sucks sometimes.

[mopinko]

12. i am a well known rib cracker. you'd be toast if i were there fizz.

there are always suck ass days. agree with this^. be nice to yourself.

[elleng]

5. VERY sorry, fizz.

Sounds like fatigue likely aggravated a bad situation.

DO yell and scream.

[fizzgig]

7. i got some good yelling and screaming done in the car yesterday

i feel calmer today

thanks, ellen

[Denninmi]

6. Me, too.

I can relate to being excluded from family dynamics, and it does hurt. Please know we will be here for you.

[fizzgig]

8. thanks, dennis

i'm feeling much better today and i get the whole day today with my husband, so that'll help even more.

[libodem]

9. Have a hug

There ya go... ...ya big baby.

[Denninmi]

10. We all need those from time to time.

[Still Blue in PDX]

11. I'm glad you're feeling better.

There's just no getting around it. Life really sucks sometimes, even if we understand the reasons for it.