Closure
Spoiled and selfish boy
If your mind only knew
That while you continue not caring about me
I continue to hate myself for loving you
Addicted to the rush
Only your lips can bring
Unbearable withdrawals from your touch
Though in your mind I was just a fling
Don't look too far into it you say
Remember you feel nothing anymore
Well it's kind of difficult to believe that
Well my body you continue to explore
Too many months later
You're still my first waking thought
So ashamed of how much I care
Knowing you care not
As if it wasn't painful enough
You said it was important to still be friends
Then you stop talking to me altogether
Must just be something to say when it ends
And all those unanswered questions?
Yeah, they still eat me alive
You're hot and cold indecisiveness
Well it still kills me inside
But I move on regardless
Though the pain still remains
Nothing but confusion and anger
Now coursing through my veins
I fear running into him
Because I have to fake that smile
His obligatory hug wouldn't hurt so much
If he'd reach out to me once in a while
But he doesn't really want me in his life
He simply doesn't care
It could not matter less to him
Whether or not I'm there
There's a monumental difference
Between accepting that it's over
And being able to sleep at night
Because I got closure
