What is the constant "opposition" I've been up against this past year or so?

[villager]

I'v been underemployed for months (with my on and offline teaching jobs vanishing), though I have one parttime copywriting gig now. But it just started paying.

And I went to the bank and found I only have a few hundred dollars left to my name. While, meanwhile, I'm renting a car because a motorcyclist crossed a red light and slammed into my car...

...and a fractured tooth needs a root canal.

And I'm a month or so behind on the rent.

All coming in the year when my Ex has been on a general warpath.

Man, I'd love to ditch L.A. and the whole scene, and just live in a Yurt in the woods for awhile. But my boys are here, so I stay, though the city has scarcely been kind to me.

And now I'm destitute!

One week from my next p/t copywriting check, and while one of the teaching gigs (an evening writing class) returns next week, I don't get paid for another month...

So I remain destitute!

I used to have more confidence in things, and now a kind of "blah" is setting in (probably as a defense against panic), but I don't want it to become full-blown depression.

And if I can somehow survive the next few months, and get current book finished, there's a chance the fall might be... easier. A bit. Maybe.

But for now: I'm destitute. In a fundamental, scary way.

So I came here to vent, to wonder what might lie in the stars (and if it'll pass) and/or whether this is connected to the fact I often seem to "put out" streetlights when I go past them! (I know, another thread -- but something I've always wanted to ask here anyway!)

Thanks for the venting, compadres...

[kimmerspixelated]

1. I hear ya.

It seems like there are so many challenges, and they all seemed to have happened at once!
It's like, Hey Universe!...Why not JUST sprinkle a little here and there?

The salt and pepper and sage and thyme lids are all off and they've been dumped into the giant mish mosh of curried carumba!

[Howler]

2. I'm so sorry Villager!

Sending some lightness of being and prosperity your way!

[villager]

3. thanks, guys!

Yeah, not sure why I couldn't at least get these things spaced apart -- coming more or less at once, just seems to amplify the effect of each, like some nasty reverberation thing.

I'm ready for those good vibes to counteract! (And thanks for sending!)