How many people do you personally know who've been in a plane crash?
How many people do you personally know who've been in a car crash?
How many fatalities in each?
A bit more than a decade ago I was in a hotel at the airport in St Louis, MO. It was located at one end of the runway and my room overlooked the runway. Hooray! I know, I'm weird. I like to watch airplanes take off and land. Anyway, there I was, for three days, spending countless hours watching planes take off, one after another. Or watching them land, one after another, depending on the prevailing winds and runway assignments.
Understand, that I'm someone already extremely predisposed to consider flying very safe. But I want to say, sitting in my room watching plane after plane land, or plane after plane take off, really reinforced that. I honestly want to suggest you spend a few hours, or maybe even a few days doing that. Either take up an observation post near an airport runway, or book a hotel room so located. If that doesn't convince you, then honestly, either find a very good hypnotherapist or get good drugs to help you through.
Rereading your post, I do think you need to seek out appropriate professional help. It cannot be remotely fun to be so terrified of the one flight a year you need to take, nor to be sickened by being above three floors in a building. There are going to be times when you need to be higher up, and that must be truly awful. Really, figure out what you need to help you and do it.
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