sheba the cat... 1992-2014

[sammythecat]

22. ...

It's tough when the light goes out in something innocent and beautiful. It's really hard.

When death approaches I'm reminded of a line from a Lord Byron poem, "If I laugh at any mortal thing, 'tis only that I do not weep." I think of that too often for some reason.

What I do in situations like this is probably unhealthy. I try to keep it out of my mind as much as I can. I never forget but I avoid reminders. A lot of people find some comfort in looking at photos and talking about memories but for me it just brings back the end and the permanent loss. And regrets. Always regrets. We're never perfect in any of our relationships no matter how devoted we were. There's always something we could have done better even if there really wasn't.

I do apologize for such a gloomy response. Your post just really hit home with me. 22 years is a long time.

I don't have comforting words. I just don't know what to say, but you do have my sincerest empathy and sympathy. I know it hurts.