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In reply to the discussion: I'm sorry, it WAS my fault, and I can't accept being told otherwise. [View all]Denninmi
(6,581 posts)I end every thought with some variation of "for a guy who spent three weeks in the psych ward".
"Hey, I just ran a half mile. Not bad for a guy who just spent three weeks in the psych ward."
"Boy, I screwed that up and the client is going to be pissed. Well, what do they expect from a guy who spent three weeks in the psych ward."
"Ah, you just woke up, it' s a new day, but don't forget, you spent three weeks in the psych ward."
I just want the internal dialogue to be "Hey, I just ran a half mile. Not bad." Or, "ah, you just woke up, it's a new day."
I want it to be like it was, when I didn't have to end each thought with an unpleasant memory of what I did, or diminish each accomplishment with self-degradation.
I'm not proud of what happened, and it makes me very ashamed.
Out of prison, but still on parole. The parole officer is an ass, and I'm afraid I'm him. Beating myself up because I can't drop it and move on.