where did my empathy go?

[lostnfound]

16. I think people underestimate their importance to others

I’ve tended to think of suicide as a personal choice and a right of individual free will, when life became too impossible to endure and the choices were all Hobson’s choices.

The stress of living in one’s own head, wanting to avoid continuous pain that is making you crazy, makes one look for methods of escape. It’s like selecting “resign” on a game you’ve determined you can’t win.

When thinking that way, I would think “Other people might feel bad for a short time but it’s not like I actually matter that much to anyone”. well, there are a couple of exceptions..but am I obligated to live and feel miserable, for the sake of other people?

Perhaps he had pinned all his dreams and hopes and reasons for living on that future child. Gave up hope of anything ever being right.

I’m sorry.