piddyprints
piddyprints's JournalI know this isn't the biggest problem we face now.
But exactly what is the problem with stores and online sites keeping things in stock?
Is it the hoarding? Why does everyone suddenly need so much rice, chili powder, oatmeal, you know ... stuff you might have in your pantry? I get that we're using more vinyl gloves. But seriously, coffee? Are we drinking that much more coffee?
I'm just trying to do my normal shopping. I'm not stocking up on anything, which might be stupid but it's the way I roll. (I hate clutter.) But nothing is available. We still can't buy alcohol or aloe vera gel, and we've been trying online and locally for several weeks now. Isn't there some point where people have enough and then the rest of us can get some?
Yes, this is a tiny, tiny thing compared to what the doctors and nurses and infected and grieving people are going through. Still, the stress we're all going through is real. And frustrating. And scary, because we know that even if we can find stuff to buy, just touching it might get us sick ... which is why I go through the extra work of washing absolutely everything that comes into the house with soapy water.
Are we going to get to where we just can't buy anything? Is that why people are hoarding stuff? Am I just too naive?
Is anyone else just really tired?
I suffer from fatigue on a good day. But this year I'm having a hard time putting one foot in front of the other. The daily energy-suck of this administration, worrying about nuclear war, whether the repugs will let MF45 skate for his crimes (they did), the economy, the virus, the election, all are very draining.
It's hard to exercise, but I've worked out every single day for over 3 years. It's my "I don't give a shit about anything else" time. And I cook and garden and do other things to distract myself. Right now, I'm sewing masks. And it helps to do something even when I don't have the energy. Just stay away from heavy machinery.
I sleep well most nights, and I wake up feeling pretty good for just a split second, until my waking brain reminds me that we are in a worse nightmare than I ever imagined on that horrible day in 2016 when it was clear that we would have a monster in our White House who would endanger the lives of every one of us over at least the next 4 years. I don't post on FB anymore, but I did put my photo as just a black square on day 1 and vowed to leave it like that until our country got back on its right footing.
This year was supposed to be a good one. It was the year we paid off our mortgage, our daughter is graduating with her master's degree, and our friends were going to visit us from Germany. Well, we did pay off the mortgage, which is a good thing. Daughter is likely graduating, although she's been learning and teaching from home for several weeks. The award she earned will not be presented at a banquet, and she won't have a graduation ceremony. Normally, we would be celebrating. We couldn't even have a beer with her when she passed her oral exams yesterday. Our friends can't visit. Even before coronavirus, it was not worth the risk while people were being turned around at someone's whim because of all the shit that comes out of the orange anus. And I'm still nervous about the election delivering another 4 years of this. I've learned not to ever ask how much worse it can get.
Yet, we still have an income and we're still healthy. Everyone we know still has an income and is still healthy. We are thankful for that. Still, it feels as if we'll never get out of this rabbit hole and it's exhausting. We grieve for those who have lost loved ones and are intensely aware of how much the last thing they need is social distancing. We are aware that even before this, so many families were one paycheck away from disaster and now they have that disaster.
It's just all so much. And it's making me more fatigued than ever.
My dentist's office just closed.
I had an appointment scheduled for the end of the month, but I have to say that I'm relieved not to have to decide whether to go or not. They're calling everyone who has an appointment and rescheduling for a few weeks out, which I think will probably be too soon. I expect them to call and move it out again before then.
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