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Heartbreakingly sad end to a young life , Leelah Alcorn. **Suicide trigger warning**

A 17-year-old transgender teen was struck and killed by a passing semi trailer on an Ohio interstate on Sunday, and a previously written suicide note later appeared on the teenís Tumblr blog through scheduled publishing.....In the note, Leelah said she identified as a transgender female from age 14, when she first became aware of the term, having felt ďlike a girl trapped in a boyís bodyĒ since she was four.

Leelah said she subsequently came out online, and turned primarily towards the internet for friendship. She said she attempted to convince her parents that she had to medically transition, but claims she instead received therapy and ďbiasedĒ counseling from Christian therapists:


If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.

Please donít be sad, itís for the better. The life I wouldíve lived isnít worth living inÖ because Iím transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boyís body, and Iíve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally ďboyishĒ things to try to fit in.

When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesnít make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please donít tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people donít ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That wonít do anything but make them hate them self. Thatís exactly what it did to me.

My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.

When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didnít receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.

I formed a sort of a ďfuck youĒ attitude towards my parents and came out as gay at school, thinking that maybe if I eased into coming out as trans it would be less of a shock. Although the reaction from my friends was positive, my parents were pissed. They felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight christian boy, and thatís obviously not what I wanted.

So they took me out of public school, took away my laptop and phone, and forbid me of getting on any sort of social media, completely isolating me from my friends. This was probably the part of my life when I was the most depressed, and Iím surprised I didnít kill myself. I was completely alone for 5 months. No friends, no support, no love. Just my parentís disappointment and the cruelty of loneliness.

At the end of the school year, my parents finally came around and gave me my phone and let me back on social media. I was excited, I finally had my friends back. They were extremely excited to see me and talk to me, but only at first. Eventually they realized they didnít actually give a shit about me, and I felt even lonelier than I did before. The only friends I thought I had only liked me because they saw me five times a week.

After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like shit because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided Iíve had enough. Iím never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. Iím never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. Iím never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. Iím never going to have enough love to satisfy me. Iím never going to find a man who loves me. Iím never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. Thereís no winning. Thereís no way out. Iím sad enough already, I donít need my life to get any worse. People say ďit gets betterĒ but that isnít true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.

Thatís the gist of it, thatís why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if thatís not a good enough reason for you, itís good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I donít give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people arenít treated the way I was, theyíre treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say ďthatís fucked upĒ and fix it. Fix society. Please.


(Leelah) Josh Alcorn

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Posted by bench scientist | Wed Dec 31, 2014, 12:10 PM (5 replies)

Think Paul Broun was insane? Meet Jody Hice( R) nominee for US congress.

"In his seven years in Congress, Rep. Paul Broun (R-Ga.) distinguished himself by calling biology "lies straight from the pit of hell" and accusing President Barack Obama of establishing a secret national police force to push a Marxist dictatorship. But the man who may replace Broun in Washington could outdo him.

In a 2012 book, that candidateópastor and talk radio host Jody Hiceóalleges the gay community has a secret plot to recruit and sodomize children. In It's Now or Never: A Call to Reclaim America, Hice also asserts that supporters of abortion rights are worse than Hitler and compares gay relationships to bestiality and incest. He proposes that Muslims be stripped of their First Amendment rights.

On Tuesday, Hice clinched a spot in the runoff to replace Broun, who declined to run for re-election in order to run for Senate. Hice will face businessman Michael Collins in the July 22 runoff. In a district that gave 62 percent of the vote to Mitt Romney two years ago, Hice, the leading vote-getter in the first round of balloting, stands a good chance of being elected to Congress."



This guy is BATSHIT crazy!

**** Updated Hice won the Republican runoff and will face Ken Dious (D) in Nov for US Congressional GA District 10 .
Posted by bench scientist | Fri Jul 25, 2014, 10:19 AM (8 replies)

Hedwig and The Angry Itch is my favorite movie

anyone else seen it?
Posted by bench scientist | Thu Jan 16, 2014, 08:14 PM (3 replies)

Gov. Christie press conference in 24 secs

Posted by bench scientist | Thu Jan 9, 2014, 07:36 PM (1 replies)

Recall election process info page on NJ state website is down

Under recall election petition tab, click link on

and you get this error :

The page you have requested cannot be displayed because it does not exist,
has been moved, or the server has been instructed not to let you view it.

Want to bet Christie does not know about that either?
Posted by bench scientist | Wed Jan 8, 2014, 10:50 PM (14 replies)
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