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Name: Barry
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Home country: USA
Current location: San Francisco
Member since: Sat Jan 21, 2017, 05:39 PM
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The view from the Tenderloin



The View from the Tenderloin:

A nice, quiet Sunday. There is no compelling need, other than my own natural wrestlesness, to go out. We all must take the shelter in place order seriously, we are all in this together. So I've put the Netflix on my tv, and I'm watching movies, thinking, and worrying. About the nation, about my mother, about my little lost buddy, about our sudden transformation into whatever is coming.
I am old, and it's hard for me to do this. I've been fighting the good fight for years now, for my sanity, for my home, for the humanity of my damaged friend. These things are my life, I don't know anything else. I've discovered many things about myself during this ordeal. I am stronger than I thought, I am harsh with those people and things that interfere with my struggles. Many think me crazy now. Life does that.
God bless you all
Hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Sun Apr 12, 2020, 02:36 PM (2 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin

The View from the Tenderloin
It's always hard to see the forest for the trees, but sometimes we have to try. The republican party has known for some years now that they cannot win national elections fairly. So they cheat. They also know that cheating is not going to work all the time. Their long term answer is what should frighten us all. They are done with the democratic system of government. While it's never been a perfect system, it does work. It has worked in various countries, in various forms, since it was invented by the Greek Solon a very long time ago. So it comes down to this: We either get rid of the republican party, or the republican party is going to get rid of democracy.
Hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Sat Apr 11, 2020, 09:25 PM (0 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin



The View from the Tenderloin:
I thought up an excuse to go out (a gallon of milk), and hoofed it. I need exercise, I'm not going to sit around and get fat. Been there, done that. Cold and dreary, muted colors for a grey day. Not for long. I walked into the hood, got the milk at my favorite corner store, and as I turned to go back towards Market, a tap on my shoulder. M*****m, I'll be damned, with a big grin on his face lighting up the block. I knew where he was supposed to be, my raised eyebrows asking the question. Two hours ago, he says, I was in San Quentin Prison. They turned a bunch of us loose today, put us on a bus and here I am. He was in for non-violent offences, one of which was commited against me. I had forgiven him already, early last year, so I returned his grin and told him I was glad he was out. But, you don't have any place to live yet? No, he says, but when he sees his parole officer on Monday, housing will be arranged. He has money, they always give them money when they release them.
So, today San Francisco is hosting a happy contingent of released San Quentin inmates. It's safe to assume, my Iowa friends, that the same thing may be happening in your fair state. If so, welcome them into these uncertain times. They are citizens just like us.
Hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Sat Apr 11, 2020, 02:16 PM (0 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin

The View from the Tenderloin
The shock of the plague is, obviously, going to transform the nation. We have been herded along a path that was going to a dark place. This event has changed that, where it will end up no one can say for sure, but it's certainly not going to be where we were going.
National Healthcare is coming, as is universal internet access. Not because the powers that be want those things, because this event mandates those things.
Hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Fri Apr 10, 2020, 10:38 PM (1 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin


The View from the Tenderloin
I'm back. My body took a beating from that move, my care provider prescribed protean. I've been eating eggs, short ribs, hamburgers, chicken salad, yogurt, chocolate chip banana bread, hard cider, tequila and oj. Ok, the liquids were also prescribed, by me. I feel better. I went back into the hood this morning for my walk, I wanted to see if my favorite corner store was still functioning, it is but with some bare spots on the shelves. I needed to get some sugar, as somehow salt got mixed into the big sugar bin.
I put Dark Side of the Moon on my blue tooth headphones and went out the door. Short sleeves and Shorts this morning. I got mixed signals all along the way. Empty, quiet streets gave me a sense of peace and calm, the boarded up store fronts, which I'm seeing more and more, imparting a different message. Somewhat of a jarring juxtaposition. I'm going to stay in as much as I can now, as we all must. I'm waiting for the plague money to show up in my bank account, when it does I'm going to stock the new place up.
We run and we run
To catch up with the sun
But it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way
But you're older
Shorter of breath
And one day closer to death
We are all of us on this road together. We are here to help each other along, and to pave the way for those coming behind us.
Hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Fri Apr 10, 2020, 01:16 PM (0 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin



The View from the Tenderloin:
All I can say is whew. The last three days were grueling, thirty five miles of back and forth between the old and new apartments, some of it in the rain, hauling everything I wanted, and my friend and I could cope with. It was worth every step. I love the new place. It's senior housing, and everyone is being very careful, the plague would go through here like a dose of salts. I've got my old business partner cleared as my in home care provider, which is he, and damned good too. He will be able to come and go at will. Other than that, like all the other residents, it's a no visitor policy until after the emergency.
My homeless buddy is on his own for now. I've asked the Devine to watch and protect him, it's all i can do. He knows where I moved to, eventually he will come by. He won't be able to come up, but there are many wonderful places in this neighborhood we can go for visitis. Our visits are best when short, and his demons don't have time to really start in on me. We've done this for four years, and neither of us are going to give up any time soon.
Please hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Wed Apr 8, 2020, 07:52 PM (6 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin

The view from the Tenderloin
It's been something of an ordeal, but I'm starting my third morning of hand-hauling my belongings, with the help of my old business partner. The plan for a vehicle fell through, oh well. So far, on my trips back and forth, I've logged twenty two miles, and lost ten pounds. I am amazed at what a tough old bastard I am. The new place is coming together, I slept there last night on my own bed. It's sweet. The view out the windows at night, looking north towards the financial district, is breath taking.
The homeless have been distilled down to their essence. Some of the sights I've seen are heart breaking. I can't even describe some of these poor wretches. My little buddy is refusing to deal with our new situation. I saw him yesterday, he was exhausted, looked miserable, and wanted to come up to the old apartment to sleep. I begged him to go to a shelter, he has to, he is out of options. Turning him away sends shock waves through my soul.
I left early to start doing runs, the sky was just getting light as I moved through the hood towards Hyde street. I stopped briefly and turned to look back, and saw the Hilton tower standing against the lit sky like a giant tombstone. Ours? Not yet I thought, not yet.
Please hold those dear to you close.
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Tue Apr 7, 2020, 09:58 AM (0 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin



The View from the Tenderloin:

Well, it's been raining, hard. I've done three round trips to the new place, hauling loads on my handcart that my old business partner is putting together. Forty eight point six blocks. I'm going to do three more today. My homeless friend is half way up the block on Hyde, in the midst of an OCD event, one of his defense mechanisms he goes to when he cannot deal with what is happening. He, and his belongings are soaked. I've explained to him repeatedly, that after the shelter in place order is lifted, he can come to me at the new place. The demons in his head are telling him something else. I would prefer him wait inside the old place, but my old business partner won't do anything to help if friend two is there. I get it coming and going.
I am already beat, and I am trying to pace myself. I've got today and tomorrow to get as much done as I can.
Try, hard, for Gods sake, to keep those dear to you close.
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Sun Apr 5, 2020, 03:41 PM (9 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin


The View from the Tenderloin:

The impact of this Plague is breathtaking. Seeing the City this empty is surreal. The masks. I've been wearing mine, not only in the public areas of buildings, but more and more on the street. On a personal level, the impact on my household, even though all three of us contracted it and are immune now, is horrific. Normally I have two housemates. One of them is homeless and comes and goes randomly, the other has an SRO room in a nightmare of a building, and hates to use it. I am in the process of moving into senior housing, and with the shelter in place rules, neither will be able to come over. I understand the ones reluctance to use the SRO room, I've lived in that building, and nightmare doesn't even do it justice. I got permission from the manager here at Hyde Street to have my homeless buddy here for a few days to help me move. He and I are old friends of four years, and we have been through it. I am beyond appalled to have to send him back out there during this pandemic. It is a nightmare. The stress levels from all this are toxic, an ordeal within an ordeal.
Try to hold those dear to you close
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Sat Apr 4, 2020, 08:48 PM (2 replies)

The view from the Tenderloin

The View from the Tenderloin:
By noon today I had walked five point eight miles, and learned the hard way that the pot clubs are only doing orders placed online for pick up at the curb. I waited a full hour in line to get two money orders, then walked to the new apartment to get the keys. By the time I had signed a few things, and the manager gave me the tour, I was shot. It was an incredible relief to sit for a few minutes in the comfy leather rocker the previous tenant had left. The good news is that I love the place, though it's half the size of the Hyde St. Apartment, the building is much newer. Everybody wore masks, it is a senior housing. I can have helpers to move in, as long as they are masked, but then absolutely no guests for the time being. Since the last four years have been, um, interesting, I can't help thinking what a blessing in disguise this enforced peace is going to be.
I will make a serious attempt to get my stuff over there over the weekend, both large and small. It will be a labor of love. My old business partner is helping, and since my little buddy stopped by, he may help as well. Masked, of course.
Hold those dear to you close.
God save the Republic
Posted by winetourdriver01 | Fri Apr 3, 2020, 06:04 PM (0 replies)
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