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cilla4progress

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2. Great post, and thank you for

Reply to Comatose Sphagetti (Original post)

Sat Feb 24, 2018, 12:22 PM

Feb 2018

sharing your story.

You have a high level of self-awareness, I believe, to attribute your addiction to fear, at its root.

I had a terrifying "psychotic" interaction with a trumper in my home last year. He took me down rabbit holes of his own design. Ultimately, I thought I could shut him up bringing up the lie about Obama'a birth certificate. When he STILL alleged that was falsified, thowing out crazy conspiracies, I knew he was beyond recovery, and have not nor will I ever speak with him or be in his presence again. I asked him to leave.

The scariest part? He made me self-doubt. Or at least self-question. I trundled up to my safe space in bed and started researching all the premises I knew were true. For about 36 hours I was mind-fucked. This is why I will never engage with these monsters. It's hard for me to watch Loesch and other apologists, much less trump. It makes me feel a little crazy myself. This is part of their (and Putin's) game.

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I used to be a drunk... [View all] Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 OP

Thanks! irisblue Feb 2018 #1

Great post, and thank you for cilla4progress Feb 2018 #2

Well said. Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #4

I buried my best friend at 45 SCantiGOP Feb 2018 #3

"...even though I really don't think there was anything I could have done that would have worked." Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #5

The line between fear and rage is very thin - fear leads to rage. The Velveteen Ocelot Feb 2018 #6

For me, rage is fear. Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #9

So cool. cilla4progress Feb 2018 #13

Yep. Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #15

There is a big difference between what I see in myself and what I see in others. JayhawkSD Feb 2018 #7

We will have to agree to disagree, my friend. (N/T). Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #8

thanks old timer Backwoodsrider Feb 2018 #11

Yes to some of us who has been through it we can see addictive behaviors galore in politics Backwoodsrider Feb 2018 #10

"Every day on the news Trump helps me see my character defects in another person" Comatose Sphagetti Feb 2018 #12

I'm afraid they will turn on us - cilla4progress Feb 2018 #14

It's hard for me, sometimes, to not take trumpers inventory. Woman in the Mirror. irisblue Feb 2018 #16

Not an addict but gibraltar72 Feb 2018 #17

Ah geez🤦‍♀️ irisblue Feb 2018 #18

"...a growing awareness something was terribly wrong..." Iggo Mar 2018 #19

Yep. He is also a "higher power" of sorts to them JDC Mar 2018 #20

I've heard people in the program refer to non-alcoholics as "normies," as in normal people. Comatose Sphagetti Mar 2018 #21

IME Many people who don't go to any meetings really raccoon Jul 2018 #23

One of the most important lessons of the meetings...is ..acceptance... Stuart G May 2018 #22