So, what was up with me a few months ago? Or now, for that matter? [View all]

[Denninmi]

I am pondering the difference between where I was in August/September and now.

RE: the extreme fear, most of which has proven irrational. Symptom or merely a stress response that anyone could experience under circumstances deemed dire? Probably some of both.


Now: I really feel like I am getting my act together. I had my second appointment with the new psychiatrist last night, and I really like her. At the end of my appt, I showed her some photos of the Sandhill cranes I have been feeding, and we talked birding a few moments, she loves animals.

Doctor, check. Therapist, check. Lamictal, check. Physical health, check, getting it all controlled. Diet, exercise, sleep, check. Relationships, rough but I have faith they will improve. Finances, well, I guess 6 out of 7 isn't too bad.

So, for whatever reason, I feel like I have a real future, not one in the psych ward or gutter.

And that is a good thing.