cyclonefence
cyclonefence's JournalI stopped taking Wellbutrin a couple of months ago
under the supervision of my internist. I told her I didn't feel like I needed it any longer (the issues that existed when I started taking it are long ago resolved), and I take so many meds, I'd love to get rid of some of them.
Well, last week I started really feeling sad--after many weeks of being just fine--and not normal kind of sad but the kind of sad that just makes you want to give up on everything.
I had surgery on my right thumb/wrist, and I've been the star of the therapy group, doing an excellent job and working hard, to the point where my therapist says I'll probably be able to end therapy sooner than expected. Since I started feeling sad again, I really have to force myself to do my four-times-a-day exercises.
I don't even want to brush my teeth--and this is a big deal because the dental hygienist always gives me high marks on my home care and barely has to clean my teeth at all because I do such a good job. And now I don't want to.
I've managed to continue to keep bathing, but I don't want to wash my hair. I put on clean clothes (so far) and do the dishes and make the bed generally keep things tidy and put away. But things I did automatically are an effort now.
I'm seeing my doctor on Wednesday to ask her to put me back on Wellbutrin--and even this makes me sad. It's just another failure.
Any cheerful words would help--I'm actually crying as I type.
Do you think all this penis talk
is being encouraged (or at least not stifled) by his handlers because it's a way to keep reminding voters that Kamala Harris doesn't have one? Looking for that misogyny vote? For Trump, this would be subtle.
The Republican apologist on some show I landed on actually seemed to approve of Trump's hideous vulgarity. I would have thought they'd have been brushing this off as more "locker-room talk," but no Repub I'm aware of has made anything near an excuse for it.
And of course the crazier Trump talks, the easier it's going to be to 25th amendment him should the unthinkable happen.
Which I think is their plan.
I've been fuming recently
about what Trump put us through during that first wave of covid. Do you remember all the posts here asking for patterns to make face masks because there was such a shortage due to lack of leadership? The idea that we were so unprepared (because Trump threw away the Obama administrations plans for dealing with a pandemic) that the public were making and donating life-saving materiel to hospitals caring for covid victims--can you believe it now?
And remember how hard it was to find vaccine? None of our primary care doctors, not even my pulmonary specialist, had access to any of the vaccines being produced. We finally got our shots because a woman my husband plays bridge with had a friend who family doctor somehow had procured vaccine. We called that office and were given a number, then sat in the waiting room with a crowd of people wanting to be vaccinated. In that first wave, you had to know somebody who knew somebody.
Sure, Trump could have endorsed getting vaccinated and not acted like such an ass. But I think worse than that was his refusal to use the powers of government to procure and distribute PPE and vaccine.
I grind my teeth at night thinking about this. Grrrrrrr.
I was cheered up today
We took our son, his gf, and our grandson (18 mos) to a Fall Festival near here. We live in a reddish part of Bucks Co. PA, and I hesitated before putting on my Kamala t-shirt. Then I thought to myself (and announced to my husband) that I was sure we were going to see lots of red caps, so screw it.
I am overjoyed to report that I did not see *one* MAGA cap, t-shirt, or any other political paraphernalia at this event, which had hundreds of people in attendance. Additionally, the diversity of the people there was so heartening, I actually felt hopeful about our county's performance on election day. There were families of every color; I caught at least four different languages being spoken, there were women in hijabs--it was truly wonderful. Plus the kid had a great time.
"I love Thomas Edison.com"
billboards line I95 near my house in PA. I checked out the website, and it's just what it says--it's about Thomas Edison. What interests me is that the typography is identical to the "I hate Steven Singer" billboards (this is a jeweler, and your husband will hate him because you will want to buy diamonds. I guess).
Who is doing this advertising, and why? Anybody know?
I just subbed to a group
and don't know how to be able to read the posts. I click on the selected posts that are shown on the left side of my screen, but is there a way I can see the whole discussion, like I can if I click on Latest? Thanks for your help.
Hubris inevitably followed by Nemesis
Well, I complained here a few hours ago about being treated like an old feeble person, so when I went to the grocery store I decided not to take my cane. All was well until I tripped on my goddam non-slip soles and fell straight down, banging my forehead good and hard. I have a magnificent goose-egg and ever-darkening bruise.
Of course, the worst happened: everybody in the damn store but the butcher it seemed clustered around me wanting to help me get up. I told them I was fine, which I was, and to let me sit a second and then hold on to the counter to get up. Which I did. But by then the store manager was there and wanted to make sure it wasn't the store's fault (or make sure I wasn't going to say it was the store's fault), which it wasn't. It was my own damn fault. If I'd had my cane I wouldn't have fallen.
Shit shit shit.
Suddenly people are approaching me
with "Do you need help, darling?" in the grocery store. Something about my appearance or demeanor has changed, all of a sudden, to make me look/seem more decrepit than I am, and I want to know what it is.
I am a 77-year-old woman, I walk with a cane when I'm out of my house (but not in the store--the cart is my walker!). I have tremors (maybe they have suddenly worsened; I can't tell). Until the other day, I had a plastic brace on my right wrist (elective surgery), but the remarks have continued since the brace was removed.
The manicurist asked me if I drove. I said yes, and I asked her if that made her feel less safe on the road, and she just smiled. Then she asked me if I cook, for glob's sake, and I said yes, that in fact some of the junk under my fingernails was pie dough from the tomato galette I had made that morning. She wanted to know if I lived alone (I don't; my husband and I have been married 53 years or something)--in short, she telegraphed pretty clearly that I was too old to be out on my own.
My doctor assures me I have all my marbles (whew), so I'm not imagining this. Has anybody else experienced this kind of thing, where all of a sudden people treat you like you're really, really old and feeble? I mean, I am really old--not really, *really* old, but old--but why now are people starting to point this out to me?
When I was a little girl
in Hinton WV, where almost all the men worked for the mighty C&O (and thus were union members), everyone knew that the only Republicans in town were Mrs. Mary Anderson and her son Nathan.
And nobody was mean to them, either.
Just a memory that brings a smile to my face.
The thing I don't get about support for school vouchers
is that they (it seems to me) benefit only people who can afford to send their kids to private/parochial schools in the first place. As I understand it, the vouchers are in amounts like two or three thousand dollars, which would not cover tuition in almost all private schools I'm aware of. I don't know anything about how much it costs to send a kid to a parochial school, but I would hope that whatever church is providing education would make sure scholarships were available.
Why do people who cannot possibly afford to send their kids to a private school (the George School, a private high school near me, charges $73,100 for boarding students, $47,900 for day students) feel so strongly about an option which benefits only rich people?
Philadelphia Catholic High School charges $10,425, but this is a highly selective school--95% of graduates go on to four-year colleges--and I could understand a parent lusting for $2000-3000 off that cost, but then there is the question of using tax-payer funds to support a religious enterprise, which I oppose.
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